blow dust away

its been a long long time since im updating here, but now with a new laptop
i think i will use this as offhand diary bahs


my emotions are not hundred percent happy these few days
its hundred percent sad


i guess that mostly people will think very well of me, of my past.
but in fact, ive done some most terrible things


in actual fact, darling was arguing over this issue to me.
he has been obessed with every single things i do, every single mistakes ive make, and track EVERYTHING
even though i love him, i dont like it this way though.
i want to smack away this pair of annonying watchful eyes!


and he claims that he doesn't want it this way, but he is happy this way?!?!?!
WTH right!?!?!!?
sighx 1000000000 times





i love him, more thn anything else in this world, and im nt shameful to admit that
i want him to marry me, go through everything with me.






will things turn for the better?