Spot the difference :)

First half of Year '07

Later half of 07'

Nude face

                                                                   Heavy makeup face

Early half of 08' 

                                                         Sorry for acting cute. Lols.

Later half of year 08'

                                                            no makeup

i miss u XL

Early part of 09'

the very painful past. i know i look fat here. because i was fat!

                                                                          i miss u too!

had permed hair for awhile and decided i looked too aunty.

Later part of year 09'

Perfectly fine black hair, then im bored of my messy black hair look so i dyed to brown.

which i grew bored of and i dyed back to black! hahahahaha

Early part of year 10'

 Later part of year 10'

I went to cut my fringe which makes my face round! hahah!

and thn the next few days i was sooooooo bored and tired of my hair style so i bleached it gold and cut it to my chest area.

which i regreted almost instantly! because now my used-to-be silky and smooth hair has turn into dry hay D:

and i looked like ah lian! hahahhaah! So the next day i went to dye it brown , and cut it even shorter, which took me a lot of courage.

My appearance may have changed a lot, but the girl within me changed even more.

It has been a very dramatic 4 years, which i dont even want to think or talk about.

From peer pressure , to names callings, to being aneroxic, to falling in love, to being abused, to taking private dip' instead of A lvls, to working in adult society, to learning etiquettes, to becoming stronger, to start saving money, to start investing the money that i've saved , to stop trusting love, to buying a dog, to learning to appreciate my life, my family, my friends.

Since young, I had never wanted my life to be like this, never.

I used to be talented at almost every single stuff.

From cooking to baking to painting to sewing to roller-blading to dancing to badminton to basketball etc,

the very motivated girl who wants to learn everything and everyone expects me to do well.

But now, people are actually surprised that i have talents at all.

the world assumed that i am a vain, and spoilt girl.

the impression i gave agrees with what they are thinking.

but now, i realised i dont care so much anymore.

why should i pleased others when its my life?

and even if i were to pleased, there will still be minorities that see flaws.

Im not perfect, even though i try to be.

I try to be a good daughter by not smoking, drinking, having tattoos, clubbing out late,

not because these are bad things,

but because if im a mum i dont want my daughter to make me worry too.

I try to be a good worker by being on time ( which is a very very big deal to expect out of me, because i hate to be the one waiting ) , to clinch deals monthly, to educate myself constantly with the world and news.

I try to be a good sister, my mei and i are very close from the day i matured , and i communicate with my brother even though he is embarrassed to be close with me these days.

I suspects that I may be too strict on my expectations on both of them. Haha.

And in so many other ways i try....

I try to be a good friend, i try to keep the apartment clean myself, i try to keep myself healthy.....

Yes , but still im as flawed as ever.

I refused to believe in online friendships between opp. sex.

Im bossy, and competitive.

Im fierce, and naggy and busy.

I am always late but i flared up when i have to wait for others.

Yes , this is me. Having travelled half of the world at my tender age.

Seen the world of the poorest of the poor, had a taste of the richest of the rich.

Saw through lies, and deceptions , and the cheating,

learned not to judge, to forgive but never forget.

yearn to love but too hurt to trust

still emotional , and feel sad about harsh way of life.

likes being versatile, hate being categorise to a certain style.

always nag at my parents, my siblings, my friends, strangers at every given opportunity.

and so far, no one has guessed my real age correctly :)

Yes , you can hate me.

But remember, I wont hate you.

I miss my longgggggggg black hair D:

Baby :)

Hee, this cute darling here is baby :)

Everyone was surprised of my haste desicion to get a dog, because I was never a fanatic dog lover, and I'm staying alone now so there were doubts of whether i can take care of myself, let alone a dog.

But well, i think im doing not bad now.

Baby is a healthy four month old chihuahua :D

I might not be the world's most doting and loving owner but i spend as much time and love on him as I can, and i will promise to take care of him as long as he lives.

He is super well-behaved. Everyone will assume that chihuahua is a very hyper-active breed and chews almost everything in sight and bark consistently.

Yes he has tons of energy but he dont bark unless there is a reason.

Everyone adores him to bits.

I was walking him late last night, and i dont walk him with a leash, because if i leashed him he will refuse to walk!

But he follows me joyfully without a leash.

I was chatting on the phone when I noticed two cats that run past me.

Then i turn my head to check on him, only to realise he is nowhere in sight.

Its only then I realised the cat being chased was my dog =.=

So i tried to chased after them, but lucky baby was smart enough to route back to me, and i managed to shoo off the bad cat. Lol.

I can only say , .........

but the cat was twice of his size! Haha.

Full grown chihuahua will only be around the size of A4 paper.

Im grateful of him being at my side, really grateful.

I seldom step out of my house to catch a movie/chill, most of the time Im quite anti-social, so he really provides a big comfort to me.

Anyway, I was really going through a very low period last two weeks.

I feel tired and hopeless about life, and i cry at the smallest thing.

After being tired of hearing myself crying so much, I finally realised I should really heed my friends' advice.

Stop trying to do so many things at one time and stop worrying about my future.

Stop trying to be a 50 years old lady.

Stop nagging at them for being young and clueless and innocent. Lol.

The best remedy? Just stop thinking.

So, i enjoy movie alone, i sing alone, i eat alone.

Once i get use to this, I really hope i will be better :)

Of course i have great and understanding friends around me :) and Im really very appreciative of you guys to meet up with me when i have time to.

Thanks for lending a listening ear when i vent my frustration/ wail like a ghost.

Thanks for supporting me even though I always seem to make the weirdest decision.

Thanks for being my friend even though my inner self is a fifty-year-old ah ma.

You know its hard to fulfill everyone's expectations of you all at ones.

My parents will want me to be fillial daughter .

My siblings will want me to be a caring and guiding older sister.

My boss will want me to be a smart and hardworking worker.

My friends will want me to be a understanding and caring friend.

I want myself to be all of the above, but its so hard to do it all at once.

But im learning, im learning to juggle them in the most balanced way.

And through this process , hopefully i will soon learn the

joy of not wanting it all,

joy of not having it all,

joy of not doing it all.

Ciaos! :D

my dog!

Hiak hiak hiak im soooooo excited! Feeling lonely these few weeks and finally make up a decision to get a dog! Will upload photos soon :D

Well, I have managed my time better now.
Super busy, those who know what i am busy with will understand.
Anyway trying out new things and stretching myself to the limit, but hope i will be successful.

I have already decided on the condo i want, so agents can stop emailing me already :)

I was not handling my emotions properly, because got some hiccups with my mummy.

Well, I decided to move out to orchard , and defered my Adv. diploma until next year to start a business.
The reason to move out is, Mummy and daddy house is at the north side and it is difficult for me to get to work because transport already takes up to one hour. The money Ive splurged on cab is enough for me to rent a small condo apartment.
I know it may sounds ridiculous to you, because definitely living with family is a better idea. But im growing up already, i have to learn to live independently, to take the stride. I know I'm still young, but I really felt that I am ready, so when she scolded me nasty words, I was upset, very upset.

For as my whole life, Daddy and mummy had been lecturing me about taking safe steps, and other people might have the luck to win, but I may fall down. I know that they are not wrong, but i believe in chances.
I dont believe in fate controlling the path of my life, i believe in PUTTING THE HARD WORK IN to structure my life, the way I want it.
NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE, but EVERYTHING will be IMPOSSIBLE if you dont even try, dont even take out the first steps.

Thats why i took the way they frowned upon.
I gave up my JC education to study private institution college because I believe in educating myself and not for the "quality" of the certificate.
The certificate is not a backup for me, it was a choice by yours truly to learn about the path I wanted to take.
The power of knowledge is undeniable but at the same time I feel that hands on experience, will toughen me up further.
That was why i chose to study and work at the same time.

I had a small success, I completed my diploma and made my way towards adv. diploma.
I was transferred from my previous company to another company in a job with better prospect.
But never a day, had my mum and dad mentioned they were proud of me.

Not even if i managed to save down a small sum of money, not even if i am going to study my way till a university degree, not even if i am making lots more they are making now.

I think even if i become a millionaire in my 20s, they wont even blink an eye.

They still think that I chose the wrong way in path.

Thats was why i crumpled. Yes , the superwoman crumpled. I lost all my determination in life, I was emotional every night.

I as always trying to be their good daughter, I try my best to be disciplined.
I had never pick up smoking, no tattoos, no piercing.
I even quit drinking and gambling to be a better daughter for them..
But i am never GOOD enough.

I have lost sometime while being emotional, doubting whether was i the one in wrong in fact?
Parents indeed seen more in life, and they always love me, they wont advice me the wrong thing.

After thinking it over, due to my obstinate character, i decided to continue with my plan.
Because even if i fall, i want to experience it personally, so that i will be more careful later on.
Because even if i fall i want to have the strength to climb up and start all over again.
Because even if i fall i know im still young i have lots more opportunity in life.

I talked to mummy, I told her I really need her support.
Because they are important to me, even if i dont show it.
I explained to her about the draft of my plan, and if i dont reach my target in the duetime, i will give up.
She understood, and hopefully she is not so skeptical about me being crazy and doing things which i know i am not capable for.

Family is a beautiful thing.
You dont choose them, but you learn to accept them, no matter how flawed, no matter how difficult.

I am really glad i have them and i am even more glad i have my friends to support me even though most of the time they dont understand all the crazy ideas i have running in my head.
hahahhhahahahahahhaa!









Sooooo cute! Watch it, it kept me laughing for few minutes!
Aww, i love kids more than dogs! hahhaha

OL in the day ( wanzhuo call me old lady! ) , school girl at night :) .

Last minute bday list

Paiseh was being scolded no one knows what i wanted. hahahahah.
Just wish that everyone whom i cared about, please take care of yourself ok! You know who you are!

Hmmmm , for those buying me gifts? Here's a simple list to help though, hahahahah....

1. Itouch 32gb
2. Benefit's blush tint
3. Anna sui loose powder

Ok i seriously have no idea, stop forcing me to come up with a list!!!!

Just dont get ay flowers or soft toys ok :) hahahha, anyway all those 3 im going to get it today myself , so just dont bother.

Have a nice day :)

blows dust away

I know i know, this is ridiculous!

Everytime u people clicked onto my page hoping to see updates, you saw the sameeee old boring post which became more boring after you read it more than one times.

I will be back, this i promised. But i dont know when. Give me sometime to pick myself up! :)

Not as holy as you think :)

I dont deserve all of the compliments.
Im not perfect.

Im too stubborn , to take in any kind word of advice.
Im too determined, to exceed my own performance.
Im too proud, to ask for help when i need it.
Im too competitive, that I dont make friends in the same line.
Im too judgemental, that i always assume you are always wrong.
Im too independent, to the extent that everybody finds it impressive but scary.
I always think Im a superwoman, so I always try to learn and do a lot of things at the same time, neglecting my own health.
Im always too much naggy because i dont wish to see people making the same mistake but I had neglected the fact that mistakes make us grow in strength and experience.
I always forget that no matter how old I look, Im still a child, a child that need her childhood too.
I always think too much, that i made my friends worry about me too.
I always give a bad impression because I look very fierce when I dont talk and smile.
I always appear spoilt because I insist of enjoying good food and extensive list of wardrobe choices.
I am unapproachable because Im scared of strangers.


Within a minute, i can state down so many disadvantage of Jvnne.
Trust me if u are an online fan, the good image I potray is only just an image.
Maybe im even a 80 yrs old balding man whose interest is to pretend Im a xiaomeimei :)




P.S sorry for nt updating so long :) will blog about my trip and worldcup soon :)

The shortest and laziest way to slim down

http://jvnne-xoxo.blogspot.com/2010/05/my-abusive-rs.html

I realised many of you have read this blog post of mine, and I had edited some parts of it because the story doesn't flow due to my negligence that i should have checked my grammar and sentence structures. It is still not perfect, but it will do. hahah. I went back to review the story , and i was horrendous at my writing , i spent fifteen minutes trying to edit it. Once a perfectionist, always a perfectionist.

Sharing with you people now my "slim down in the laziest and shortest way" holy tips! Lol. I do not gurantee that it is hundred percent effective though , it works for me but I dont know whther does it works for you too :)
1. Breakfast is always important. It is the time of the day when our body absorb nutritions better and it is the meal to kick-start our metalbolism rate! Avoid the oily singaporean style breakfast whereby you have the fried carrot cake/ fried beehoon etc. Start with a plain porridge and a fruit ! Fruits contain a lot of vitamins that are too good to be resisted!

***Orange, like other citrus fruits, is known for Vitamin C content. Due to this high amount of vitamin C, orange helps in absorbing calcium into the body. It also help in maintaining the health of teeth and bones. It also contains vitamin A and vitamin B.
The nutritional value of orange makes it good for indigestion, constipation, bowel disorders, dyspepsia, dental care, pyorrhea, bone health, heart diseases, respiratory problems, cold, cough, influenza, skin care, pimples, acne, fever, measles, typhoid and tuberculosis .
 
***Banana is rich in potassium. It also contains other minerals such as calcium, iron, magnesium and phosphorus in large quantities. It is also rich in fibers making it a useful laxative and good for easing constipation.


The nutritional value of banana makes it useful for weight gain as well as weight loss, constipation, bowel problems, anemia, blood pressure, heart problems, ulcers, brain stimulation, depression, nervous disorders, stress, morning sickness, menstruation, etc.
 
***Apple is rich in Vitamin A and Vitamin C. Vitamin A concentration is higher in the outer skin than the flesh. Like potatoes, Vitamin C concentration is higher just below the skin in apples also. Hence the skin of the apple should not be discarded. Other vitamins present in apple include Vitamin K, Thiamin, Riboflavin, and Vitamin B6.


The nutritional value of apple makes it useful for digestion, stomach disorders, anaemia, wekness, dental care, dysentry, heart disease, rheumatism, eye disorders, cancer, gout, and skin care.
 
2.Avoid sugared drinks. For working adults, it is normal to have a cup or two of tea/ coffee during your work hours etc. Skip all these! For me i dont have a preference for coffee/tea/ milo, but i still drink the occassion green tea/ coke. This is not good. By chunking away all the soft/ sugared drinks, you will be getting rid of up to 300 calories per day. Research have been done and shown that by abstaining from these unhealthy drinks, you can lose up to 5kg in a year! 

3. Leave the table when you feel like 50% full. This is the most effective point! Seriously you have to try it! Even though you'll be wasting the food you've bought to eat, but this works wonders! The mechanism thoery of slimming down is to Take in less calorie = burning more calorie, so If you bought a bowl of noodles, eat only half of the portion. Yes, i know you will get hungrier in a shorter period and therefore comes the fourth point......

4. Slot in a breaktime and teatime into your routine of breakfast, lunch and dinner . For example,


Breakfast 8.00am One apple
Breaktime 11.00am Two pieces of biscuit
Lunch 1.00 pm Soup with 3/4 chicken
Teatime 3.00 pm a cup of corn
Dinner 5.30 pm Salad

I know this really looks very little but you are not suppose to have a satisfying meal and feel full! The main purpose is not go starve yourself and go hungry. If you feel that my recommendation looks pretty torturing, feel free to increase your portion of breakfast, breaktime and lunch! Your body burns more calories in the early part of the day, and it will not jeapardize your chances of slimming down! Just remember to eat more during the day and cut down during the night! Yes and you notice that my dinner starts at 5.30pm because .......

5. Refrain from eating your meals after 7pm. Your body's metalbolism rate slows down after sundown. This is the same theory that you should avoid eating supper because its fattening. If you are a late morning person and night owl , thn i suggest you should.....

6. Do some light exercise/ stretching before turning in. Eg . Some warming up stretches for ten min. Twenty sit-ups, and twenty push-ups. You are only burning >50 calories per hr when you are sleeping, so to ensure you are burning more calories than your daily calories intake, do some light exercise that will increase your heartbeat rate a little.This also ensures a goodnight sleep and at the same time you tone up your body :)


Yes this is all! Are you surprise? Lol.

Try it and share your results with me ok. Remember you have to be consistent everyday! Im not following these rules anymore because Ive reach the ideal weight that I wanted :)

Beat my records! In 3 weeks time , Ive dropped from 55.9kg to 49kg. In the last weight i increase my calorie intake because I felt I dont look so good.

Now im working on toning up my body. Good luck :D

Motivated to blog :)

Warning** This will be a long and wordy post . I am bloggin this because this is my personal blog and i want to keep this as a memorial to keep me going in case i forget it someday. Most of you might not be interested.


Im sure many of the public bloggers out there receive criticism over their blog post whether its targeted on their photos, poor command of english, lack of content, etc etc etc.

Or most of us have a very busy hectic lifestyle that we cant be bothered to be repeating our daily life into writings online to entertain people.

For me, my blog is not very popular, sometimes i write about vain stuff, sometimes i put up a photos or two, and only recently i have been writing about my emotional stories and feelings i feel.

I also realised that most of my readers are guys, which dont really motivate me to blog about my makeup, blogshops etc.

I dont expect to have faithful readers clicking on my blog everyday just to check about updates on my life, but never in my lifetime, i expect these.

I received a PM in facebook from this guy, let's call him C ( i requested for his permission to blog this material , and he prefered to remain annonymous ) this morning to check up on my email.

Ashamed to say, I have not been checking that emails for quite sometime because mostly my BB is 24 hrs logged on to my office email and my personal email. Jvnne@live.com is the general email for the rest. For example, modelling assignments, buying clothes online and updates from Facebook etc. I do not want my BB to vibrate 24hrs non-stop.

I had a hard time trying to clear my spams/junks and amidst these nonsense, i found his emails to me. Which i did not reply at all until today.


1st email:

Sent: 02 June 2010 14: 45PM



To: Jvnne@live.com
 Hi there!
 Interesting to read your "10 reasons" why you are still single from your blog.. practical and realistic and truly insighful. Not sure if you would actually open this message and read, but if you had done so, please read on..


Totally agreed with you that upbringing, background, education plays a big part in forming oneself, though, would like to share with you that not all guys are like that.. I am refering to the ones you came across - is just that you havent met your fair share of guys who are what you are seeking for.. Would you think so? Is hard for me to convince you that - I am just a mere soul out of the millions and billions, I cant vouch much to what I claimed, but if you wont mind, perhaps you may read further to read on just a few little thoughts of mine?
 Is true that guys adding you from online (be it in facebook or somewhere or anywhere) are attracted by your looks (me included, I am guilty of that!) but I guess it is something that you cant deny where attractiveness plays a part (significant I would say) in protraying one's self at first, especially where guys are more "sensual sensitive" creatures (is in-built in us, sad to say, is our lifetime physical limitation, we have to live with that and balance it with wits). Perhaps this is also one of the reasons why guys too would want to be appear at their best on their first date with a girl? To create the right, and of course true and honest, first impression. But would guys have the "right", "honest" and "true" impression in the first place?
 I would like to say it is the "agenda" and the real intention/meaning behind one who initiate contact with you that is more (most) important, and that stems from upbringing - exactly what you said! Internet and online tools are just extra avenues and facilitation tools that evolves with time and improvement, is just a shame that there is a proportion of guys who are abusing/violating everything that exists - be it technology, one's moral and other's respect which everyone deserve in their own perspective. It may be easy or not easy to appreciate one's upbringing, but I guess we can only comes to a meek conclusion only when we interact with each other. Does this sound sensible? Certainly, I really believe that there are lots of great people around with excellent upbringing which we should seek to embrace and appreciate. I am still searching for it continously and I hope you too, would be the same.


I just feel that, more than anything else, most people are lacking quality interaction among ourselves and as a result a lack of soul mate.
 I am sure that there would be guys wanting to know more about your hobbies, likes, dislikes, character, family, what you do (is a form of concern actually, would you think so?), your sharing of daily joy (or even complaints or grumbles), or maybe even the name of your small little pet and its favorite food etc - there is no boundaries to what you hope to know and understand from someone if you are truly geninue. Hope you would agree with me, to a certain extent.
 Why I am writing to you is because I am sort of like frustrated by the surroundings lead by the minority (yes, I still think it is just that few bad apples) that create such a bad sterotype to you girls that some guys are deprived of a genuine opportunity to know people of opposite sex.. This is where my frustration stems from, but I guess I am helpless about that, what can I do, right? I can only make sure I try my best to be a good me and hopefully one day a small little pleasant surprise may appear.
 My name is C, who un-wittedly added you in facebook by random 1 week ago. Again, just as what I written on my message sent to you on facebook (in case you have not read), I am embracing a geninue opportunity to know you and hope things can continue from that little facilitation internet tool to knowing and embracing a truly great soul in you!
 I would like to end off by saying - Good Luck, I hope you can find the one you are looking for one day, slowly but surely. You just need a little luck to get embraced by the "minority" and soon you will realise there is actually a "majority" in the "minority" and that the "majority" deemed by you is actually only just a "minority". =)


Take care.

Yours,


C

[PS: Hope you would have a peaceful sleep tonight =)]


Wow, very impressive. I think he can start a blog on his own lo! hahah.Unfortuantely i also missed his PM in facebook to me at that time. Must be drowned by those tikopehs/ ah bengs PM ! =X

2nd email:

Sent: 03 June 2010 10: 09AM



To: Jvnne@live.com


Hey!

Know what? I enjoyed reading your blog, though I only read it twice, but really, your words there are really spot on! Straight to the point, no dwelling around. Cool! I like you!

 I totally agreed with you saying how can people go club and turn up for work the next day. I tried it once, (not clubbing but just went for drinking with my buddies), the next day, I totally cannot concentrate! And being in a profession like mine which requires me to be efficient, coping with tight deadlines, skeptical mind, and maintaining a professional image in front of my clients, totally a struggle! From then, I never never went drinking again,at least not to the stage where you dropped dead, and the next day you still have to work! In fact, I rarely drink. I would love my liver to be functioning well in 50 yrs time. By the way, I work as an Auditor, in one of the big 4 firms, in case you may want to know.
 Would like to share with you too - I am very amazed why every weekend there are so long queues at Zouk. Being there twice for my company's function, left at 12 am, and the queues were so long for each time! My colleague told me it is just the start! Amazed! Whats going on? Are they batman or vampires or something? Only come out at night? It is so ridiculous that if you were there to collect 50 cents from each person, you can be easily a few hundred dollars richer, in the space of probably one hour! Thats higher than what I would earn in one hour for my job! And I am striving hard to earn an honest living but some people can just splash in in a blink. Gosh! That's a crime!

 And to put it in a certain way, I am always puzzled by people who party their life away.. I mean, that's so sad, why would you want to always go to such a rowdy place, and so complicated, especially for the ladies, for a chill or relax? Isnt chill defined as something easy and relaxed and peaceful? Well, different people, different mindset, just couldnt appreciate. Sad to say, my ex likes to club, which my concern had always been her safety - you may never know what could be in there. Especially the people she hanged out with.. Just dont look 100% decent to me.. We had arguments, and as much as I love her, she just couldnt understand where I am coming from.. And.. well, what she did next, I think you would guess it right. I am just someone who cant appreciate clubbing. As much as I would trust she would take care of herself, I am still worried, especially I cant be there at 3-4 am with her everytime.

 To add on to what you said, I feel that the company one mix with is equally important, or in fact, more important than anything else. It shapes who you are and your values and morals. I am glad I have a bunch of great people, who know the right priorities in life. I am lucky! And of course the upbringing my parents (my mum I would say) brought me. The discipline, the rights and wrongs. I still vaguely remember, in primary school (ok, stop laughing) I have a crush on a girl, and my mum knows about it, and she openly told me I cant like this kind of girl who is so rebellious, trouble maker, and she will never like her (ok, stop laughing please). At that point in time it doesnt really strike me, because it was just a crush and she doesnt like me (are you still laughing?), but yea, my mum was right, right now her life was in a mess. But I do sympathise with her, and also other people who are in trouble and being sucked back. Is a vicious cycle. I would always think it is a choice of how you want to lead your life. You must be sensible to know that. Which is why, I sympathise them.

 I have no idea why would I have such a strong reaction after reading what you posted and comment on it. Haha.. Finally I found someone who agrees with me on certain things! And have strong views about it! My peers always said I over-react. Haha.. Well, I hope you dont find me a big reaction!


All rightz, not sure if you had read my previous email, but well, hope you can read it as well.
Take care!
Yours,


C
(PS: did you have a good sleep by any means?)


I think if I was him and i spent such a long time typing such 2 long emails to a person and he/she did not reply I will seriously give up sending emails. Waste of my time right! But he still sent!

3rd email:

Sent: 04 June 2010 11: 25AM



To: Jvnne@live.com



Hello!

Guess one of my daily morning routine, beside eating my bread for breakfast, includes reading your blog and get to read any interesting things! (I think you blogged pretty late in the night and I am asleep by then - you know, when one is old, he needs to sleep slightly earlier =p) Without fail, there are new things that I found out about you from this latest post.

 I guess you must have had been through quite a lot in the past, if not you wont be so wary and built up so many stacks of walls to protect the inner vulnerability of yours. I am so sorry to know that but yea, believe there is a better tomorrow and as always, you are still a great person and may all the people around you are as great as you. There are plentiful of great friends you have already, I hope they will keep increasing! =)

 You will be a very good and special friend, to all the people whom you deemed them as your special ones in your life. I am sure about that, just by reading what you had posted in there with regards to your "hao jie mei". Carry on! It is always a form of happiness to know and have someone dear to you by your side.

 Past, Present and Future. There is once someone who asked me will you mind someone's past since it is in the past already. Tough question, but I think the "Past" shaped who you are at "Present", and more often than not, it (may) details the direction you will be heading to in the "Future". Though more importantly it is the happenings and surroundings you are at "Present", which will surely determine where you are heading to in "Future". I would really think that it is hard for someone to really dispose and dont mind one's past - is just a matter of embracing it, if otherwise, you are just denying and avoiding facing someone's past. But one thing I think it is really true - dont let the "Past" continue to haunt you and keep you from moving on. Cant remember where I hear this from, but I think it is good to appreciate these words. Would you think so?

 I wish you had embraced your "Past", seek to cherish and maximise your "Present", and continue to hope and strive for a better "Future"!


Are you more of a "listener" or a "speaker"? Sometimes listening to one's story is really enlightening. It is where we share, then we will appreciate one another and grow. I am more of the former, so if there is a day or night where you are bored or can't sleep, feel free to drop me a message on an email, and you will be sure I will read it as soon as I can.
 Is rare to see a girl like you with a non-shaking mind of yours, a firm thinking of yours and never be afraid to give thoughts-provoking opinion! I won't say that I have a lot of females friends or acquaintances, is just I dont see much of your attributes among the ladies I interact with, be it at work or socially. I admire you for that! =)


I have another discovery! I realise what I wrote here on the email for you is not as much as flowingly as I wrote in my work reports! Haha.. So what does this mean? Hmmm..

 Yours,


C

[PS: Hope you had another good night sleep again =)]

Forth one:

Sent: 05 June 2010 11: 23AM



To: jvnne@live.com



Hello!

No blog for me to read, but still a message to drop by and check how are you~


You are sick? Please take care, drink more warm water and rest more. No fried oily food for you until you get well again! =)

 You are good in your own ways, don't get disheartened if someone does not appreciate you as much as you would appreciate him. No one is too lowly for that. Be happy, and you will be at your most attractive!


I rarely leave messages on the wall on facebook, sometimes I think a sincere message is meant for just between the 2 so I yea, prefer to keep it private. I mean, no other meaning! I am sure what I written so far is not too private that gives you any misundertanding, right? =)



Take care, Jvnne!

 Yours,


C

[PS: Hope you sleep well tonight, with a big blanket - dont catch a call. =)]

Last but not least,

Sent: 07 June 2010 10: 55AM



To: jvnne@live.com

 Hello!

No blog post, but got to come across your little trouble at the moment.


Erm, guess that you are losing weight, but I think your stats now is fine. As in your ht and wt, you are almost 1.7m, there is no way for your weight to become lower than say 48. It is not desirable and unhealthy. I guess your worries is more about the body shape. Hmm, I am not a professional so I dont really know how good or how ideal must a body look like for a model, so I just cut short on complimenting how good you have, and just jump into what could be good for you to achieve what you want. You and the people around you are more than capable on telling you whats good about you =) Ignore those harsh comments, take it as they want to make you better!


For ladies, I guess the most important thing is to watch your diet - less oily stuff, less carbo-rich stuff, more veges, more vitamins, more fruits, would be good for you.And right, never never think that dieting or not eating is good for losing weight, in fact it works the opposite. Even if you lose weight, it will rebound back easily. I would suggest maybe you have more meals, small and light, in a day. That will keep your body metabolism working and that burns the calories. You may ask what can you eat, erm, something light and healthy? Fruits are extremely good for you to munch during intervals of the day.

 As for gym work, I would say yes, you need it - gym work is a good work to burn calories! Ok, the gym work you do will be very different from what guys do, no heavy weights, no training for power, and you can get a mind of peace that you wont get any heavy and big muscles. Go for light weights training, your body will be leaner, firmer, and yea, it should look better. If you dont eat much proteins, I dont believe you will build up muscles. You need more proteins to build muscles than say, fats. And base on the correct diet and the exercise regime, in fact you exercise to lose weight than to build muscles. So you dont have to worry so much.


For the last, I heard of this Detox thing, basically is to clear the toxic we had accumulated in our body, and this will make our body system cleaner, and as a result, healthier and SLIMER! Not sure how it works, but basically it just replacing your food with healthier choice, like snacks with fruits, soda drinks with fresh fruit juice (not manufactured with high sugar content) etc. And dont think that non soda can drinks are healthy - those are extremely high in sugar content which contribute to calories and fats. So watch out on that. Vitamins rich drinks are always the best! I am not exactly sure on how this Detox works, you may check it out.


Actually you may engage a fitness instructor to help you - they will give you very good professional advice. I learnt all these from a friend of mine who is a body builder and knows a lot on weight management and finess work. My female friends approached him back then and true enough they lose weight and look better. So yea, give it a try if you would want. But please, dont skip your meals, really it doesnt help you on weight management on a permanent basis. It can rebound back easily. And sleep too. I understand modeling is extremely tough, but hang on there, manage it and you would be fine. Good luck and all the best!

Regards,


C

 [PS: I really hope you wont have to feel so stressed and got sleepless again]






I am touched, really very touched. Thank you C, for all these words of sincere concern directed to me, a stranger to you.

This is what it feels like when you felt as if you are alone and depressed, it will only take one of these emails to keep me motivated :)

In regards to the content, i will be replying to you soon, please watch your inbox :)

For my readers, I guess all of us have one of these "low" days, start by saying something encouraging to your family, your friends, your colleagues TODAY!
These words, might be short, might be insignificant to you but they do wonders!

It can be something appreciative , like telling your mummy you love her and thank her for her love and concern, something encouraging to your friends who have been studying too hard/ busy with work .

It has to start from somewhere, why not start from YOU?

I shall be a good example.

To my dear lovely readers :

Thanks for taking the time to read my blog , and sending emails to me.
Im just a little nobody but most of you have been so concern and supportive of me!
Be it whatever things you are currently busy with, a problem, work , school , relationship,
I wish you well, wish you health and wish you happiness.
I cant do much, but i can lend a listening ear.
You can email me! I cant promise a speedy reply but I will try to reply :)


Have a nice day!
Keep faith in your heart :)


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haven't worn out sexy dress in a longest time but glad i managed to look ok

Friends, forever..

You know what the fav. question me and wanzhuo usually bombed with people are " Who is prettier?"

Then the person will be awkward because both of us used to look a teeny bit similar .

Now both of our style is obvious.

She's the tanned, cute, cheery, princess  type of girl, while I am officially now fair, feminine, mature OL.

Lol, both of us are less than a year apart only :) Heh.

Despite these we are still best of friends are our bdays are looming nearer soooooo excited :D

For her only, i will sit in the club with her without touching alcohol for hours.

For her only i can sacrifice my sleeping time to spend a little bit more time with her because she's an night owl!

Babe this year i really hope you can fulfill my promise of spending less time in thai clubs and cutting down on quitting :)

You know i am always, always here to help.

To you strangers reading this entry now, I may be just another pretty face who is very unapproachable.

But its really how much effort you take to know my past, my present and the future Ive planned to know why I am how I am right now :)

It take even more effort to tear down the wall of defences i always had towards unknowns.

For you to score my trust and be my friend.

I will promise you a lifetime of friendship with me :)

Szeling, Howard, Wanzhuo, Weining, Weicheng , Maryann

you people are the special ones.

JingLin, Wendy, Christina, Cheryl, Dom, Ken, Victor, Keaven, Rachel.

DIfferent lifestyle but I have always treat put you in a special place in my heart.

Qiqi, Shina

Becoming my very fast friends

Yingsi, Melissa, Xiaoling, Alvin, Christina, Clement, Kevin, Tingyi, Jaycob, Owen, Lawrence, Xingyi

The regrets that our friendship didnt maintain.

Bombed you more photos of mineeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D