Baby :)

Hee, this cute darling here is baby :)

Everyone was surprised of my haste desicion to get a dog, because I was never a fanatic dog lover, and I'm staying alone now so there were doubts of whether i can take care of myself, let alone a dog.

But well, i think im doing not bad now.

Baby is a healthy four month old chihuahua :D

I might not be the world's most doting and loving owner but i spend as much time and love on him as I can, and i will promise to take care of him as long as he lives.

He is super well-behaved. Everyone will assume that chihuahua is a very hyper-active breed and chews almost everything in sight and bark consistently.

Yes he has tons of energy but he dont bark unless there is a reason.

Everyone adores him to bits.

I was walking him late last night, and i dont walk him with a leash, because if i leashed him he will refuse to walk!

But he follows me joyfully without a leash.

I was chatting on the phone when I noticed two cats that run past me.

Then i turn my head to check on him, only to realise he is nowhere in sight.

Its only then I realised the cat being chased was my dog =.=

So i tried to chased after them, but lucky baby was smart enough to route back to me, and i managed to shoo off the bad cat. Lol.

I can only say , .........

but the cat was twice of his size! Haha.

Full grown chihuahua will only be around the size of A4 paper.

Im grateful of him being at my side, really grateful.

I seldom step out of my house to catch a movie/chill, most of the time Im quite anti-social, so he really provides a big comfort to me.

Anyway, I was really going through a very low period last two weeks.

I feel tired and hopeless about life, and i cry at the smallest thing.

After being tired of hearing myself crying so much, I finally realised I should really heed my friends' advice.

Stop trying to do so many things at one time and stop worrying about my future.

Stop trying to be a 50 years old lady.

Stop nagging at them for being young and clueless and innocent. Lol.

The best remedy? Just stop thinking.

So, i enjoy movie alone, i sing alone, i eat alone.

Once i get use to this, I really hope i will be better :)

Of course i have great and understanding friends around me :) and Im really very appreciative of you guys to meet up with me when i have time to.

Thanks for lending a listening ear when i vent my frustration/ wail like a ghost.

Thanks for supporting me even though I always seem to make the weirdest decision.

Thanks for being my friend even though my inner self is a fifty-year-old ah ma.

You know its hard to fulfill everyone's expectations of you all at ones.

My parents will want me to be fillial daughter .

My siblings will want me to be a caring and guiding older sister.

My boss will want me to be a smart and hardworking worker.

My friends will want me to be a understanding and caring friend.

I want myself to be all of the above, but its so hard to do it all at once.

But im learning, im learning to juggle them in the most balanced way.

And through this process , hopefully i will soon learn the

joy of not wanting it all,

joy of not having it all,

joy of not doing it all.

Ciaos! :D