Well, I have managed my time better now.
Super busy, those who know what i am busy with will understand.
Anyway trying out new things and stretching myself to the limit, but hope i will be successful.

I have already decided on the condo i want, so agents can stop emailing me already :)

I was not handling my emotions properly, because got some hiccups with my mummy.

Well, I decided to move out to orchard , and defered my Adv. diploma until next year to start a business.
The reason to move out is, Mummy and daddy house is at the north side and it is difficult for me to get to work because transport already takes up to one hour. The money Ive splurged on cab is enough for me to rent a small condo apartment.
I know it may sounds ridiculous to you, because definitely living with family is a better idea. But im growing up already, i have to learn to live independently, to take the stride. I know I'm still young, but I really felt that I am ready, so when she scolded me nasty words, I was upset, very upset.

For as my whole life, Daddy and mummy had been lecturing me about taking safe steps, and other people might have the luck to win, but I may fall down. I know that they are not wrong, but i believe in chances.
I dont believe in fate controlling the path of my life, i believe in PUTTING THE HARD WORK IN to structure my life, the way I want it.
NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE, but EVERYTHING will be IMPOSSIBLE if you dont even try, dont even take out the first steps.

Thats why i took the way they frowned upon.
I gave up my JC education to study private institution college because I believe in educating myself and not for the "quality" of the certificate.
The certificate is not a backup for me, it was a choice by yours truly to learn about the path I wanted to take.
The power of knowledge is undeniable but at the same time I feel that hands on experience, will toughen me up further.
That was why i chose to study and work at the same time.

I had a small success, I completed my diploma and made my way towards adv. diploma.
I was transferred from my previous company to another company in a job with better prospect.
But never a day, had my mum and dad mentioned they were proud of me.

Not even if i managed to save down a small sum of money, not even if i am going to study my way till a university degree, not even if i am making lots more they are making now.

I think even if i become a millionaire in my 20s, they wont even blink an eye.

They still think that I chose the wrong way in path.

Thats was why i crumpled. Yes , the superwoman crumpled. I lost all my determination in life, I was emotional every night.

I as always trying to be their good daughter, I try my best to be disciplined.
I had never pick up smoking, no tattoos, no piercing.
I even quit drinking and gambling to be a better daughter for them..
But i am never GOOD enough.

I have lost sometime while being emotional, doubting whether was i the one in wrong in fact?
Parents indeed seen more in life, and they always love me, they wont advice me the wrong thing.

After thinking it over, due to my obstinate character, i decided to continue with my plan.
Because even if i fall, i want to experience it personally, so that i will be more careful later on.
Because even if i fall i want to have the strength to climb up and start all over again.
Because even if i fall i know im still young i have lots more opportunity in life.

I talked to mummy, I told her I really need her support.
Because they are important to me, even if i dont show it.
I explained to her about the draft of my plan, and if i dont reach my target in the duetime, i will give up.
She understood, and hopefully she is not so skeptical about me being crazy and doing things which i know i am not capable for.

Family is a beautiful thing.
You dont choose them, but you learn to accept them, no matter how flawed, no matter how difficult.

I am really glad i have them and i am even more glad i have my friends to support me even though most of the time they dont understand all the crazy ideas i have running in my head.
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Sooooo cute! Watch it, it kept me laughing for few minutes!
Aww, i love kids more than dogs! hahhaha

OL in the day ( wanzhuo call me old lady! ) , school girl at night :) .