new yr's resolution

Yes, i am very very single, if that is answering your question.

If i ever sound emotional in my facebook or my blog here. Maybe its just an implusive of spillage of lots of words. Maybe its true, but not attached . Not after Mr. A 's incident .


An old year is coming to an end soon.

I felt, ive wasted one whole year. Pursuing things that i am not fated to have and falling down once, twice thrice.

When will i ever learn?

Once bitten , twice shy. It does not apply to me, not in a single bit. Oh dear.

Still good riddance to the old year, and i welcome the new year with my both arms wide open.


New Year's resolution will be to :

1. Advanced diploma certificate

2. Slim down

3. No more biting of nails.

4. No more gambling, not even mahjong!

5. Exercise more pleaseeeeeeeeee.

6. Get a bf ( i hope )

7. Curb my implusive , bad temper.

hmmmm, difficult list.

if i looked fine to you, im not

If i ever looked fine to you, maybe im not.

No one bother to ask, why i force myself to make so many changes in my life.

No one ever doubted that i am no alright.

Maybe im really a good actress, or maybe im not.

Im really not coping well with all these.

Let me be normal, i pray again,

where are you when i needed you?

Darling, if u are reading this, where are you when i needed you?
You rescued me and make me whole.
Leading me to believe in love again.
You spoilt me like no other, and you promised half of the world to me.
When i feel that im the luckiest girl in the world, you told me you haven even start loving me all.
One day you left. It almost killed me.

But now that you're back, and im strong.
I thought you'll love me more and treasure me more.
But why do i feel you're killing me bits by bits everyday?
i have no idea how long i can hold on, oh darling, i love you so.

Do i leave? Or do i salvage?


我找不到
我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好

我什么都不要
你知不知道
若你懂我
这一秒

我想看到
我在寻找那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠
紧紧守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫


*WHo are u to call me chao ah lian.
i dont smoke,
no piercing,
nor tattoo,
nor do i scold vulgarities,
or have wild colour hair or whatsoever ( nothing against girls with the above, it just that im very angry now )

Am i in wrong to give you that one slap?

When u physically hurt my gf, WHO IS ALSO YOUR BELOVED GIRLFREND.
i detest guys who use force on ladies.

WHO ARE YOU TO HIT US, just because you got a greater strength?
i am not afraid. IF u dare come find me.
This is not the century whereby u can use whole gang of ah bengs to scare me.

You are in the wrong, and im not afraid to report you to police.

If kicking her , hitting her, until she's bruised until she bleed, is correct.

You are mentally unsound.

I tell you it is not the physical hurt u inflict on her.
I was once a victim, but i walked out of that relationship.

But she cant leave you. She refused to.

I had done my part as a gf, im tired to do anything more.

If u dont love her, leave her please.

Stop asking for her forgiveness one moment and beating the shit out of her next alright.

all i want for christmas....

ALL i want for X'mas this year is...



1. Macbook PRO

2. Itouch

3. Chanel large tote bag classic

4. CHanel classic flap in white.

Very bimbo and materialistic i know.

But i just couldn't resist! too chio :D

did not edit this photo at all! :) it was a conincidence lighting :)

It just took one simple call from you. To shatter all the defences i've built around myself.

One simple sentence, To make me feel like believing in you all over again.

One simple word, and i trust.

THis time round, am i being stupid?

avoiding the truth.

Well i guess X'mas is coming and everyone is pretty excited about it :)

I am, and what about you?

Feeling ive been indulging into too much of a slack lifestyle.
Im going to throw in SOME targets!


And obviously,

1) start eating properly. And im not on a diet plan. But it just seems that im not having the breakfast, lunch and dinner rountine.

Im more of a breakfast and supper thing.

So target now is to eat properly

2) cut down on meat! Ive been indulging into a little too much meat lately.
SO im going to go health freak.

Its the veggie and fruits month :)

3) More exercise pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.

Shaking my butt on dancefloor isn't much exercise.

Anone up for some jogging and basketball?

4) Sunblock and umbrella before i leave house :D
alright i know im super fair already..... But i still can be fairer :D
going to work on getting very very very fair.

5) Pick up Latin dance. Starting on 10th jan 2010.

Anyone up for it with me? :DDD

Ok lets hope i can keep my promises :)

thaanks keaven :)

flood u with my photos since u people complaned that my blog is boring >.<

muacks muacks

ignore the mess behind!!

say hi to my short finger :D

im growing fairer and fairer :))

using the japanese 15.8mm black lens! nice?

Everytime when im desperate.

everytime when im need, i know that i can count on you and call you.

but i just owe u too much.

Really thanks for today, it was really horrible being stuck @ neo tiew lane 2! oh gosh.

But thank god u answered my call.

slept lesser

I realised that nowadays ive been sleeping very little ;/

i was back home from amber about 2 plus. But im wide awake now! It 7.30am.....

And im going jogging :D

Super hungry . feel like eating sushi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I was feeling moody for the past few days because i lost my job, and got love problems.

But thn im feelng lucky these few days again :)

headhunted by another company HAHAHA!

and i dont trust guys ANYMORE

sony event

hi, miss my photos? :)

pretty mag and me after sony traning :)

another one :)

lols i got take photo with honey!!!

but her pose all very unglam lol shall not post here :D

Me and joanna at westmall toilet :)

sporting an redeye for continous 3 days!

our booth1

:) was working for stiex too but i only managed to show up work for the first day as i was not feeling well.

Life will get only better. i hope so. i really do.

amber

I gotta feeling... That tonight going to be a good good night :)


Yes im doing the norms , drowning my sorrows! lols.


Come down AMBER 21 to find me tonight alright.!

32 circular rd boat quay :)

fool.

Of course u had the last laugh.

because im the fool. always been a fool.

protecting myself

There's a lot of words i want to say.

But no one cares. no one cares at all.

I think if im dead or whatsoever, i'll be happier. maybe.

Maybe there ain't true love at all?

Each of us rely on each other for accomapany, security, support, care, concern.

Because love fades. Even true love fates.

After each time you hurt, betrayed, stabbed.

Love slowly fades away.

But no one realises.

Because its been so long.

You're so used to each other.

But where's my love then? Is it you?

Or does someone selfish like me dont deserve love?