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my blog, is half done.
im thinking of changing my banners again. just receive super pretty photos from my photographer, alan.
hmmm, but im so lazy



FLYING OFF TO PARIS! ohmygoddd, im so excited :D



anyway, just got the news that HE maybe have a gf.
im not sad, but not celebrating either.
hope that HE will treat her better and stop hitting that GIRL.
its like what he said, " is 100% over " :)
i should start moving on.

Live a dream

"I Dreamed a Dream" ~ Les Miserables
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.



i will dream my dream, and live my dream. will you?

Addicts

Well, i dont think anyone will be following my blog closely BUT WHAT CAN I GET FOR MY MUMMY THIS NOTHER"S DAY?


seriously she has tons of stuff le, im like really really clueless about what to get her?
anyone has any idea?



anyway, im on a strict strict diet these days
trying to slim to my perfect 5okg! ( but i realise my neh neh going smaller too, how? D: )
only salad and soup slad and soup.
im like so bored of my diet.
BUT im in love with gelare's salad, really its the nicest.
even though its a little too big serving but i still prefer it to long john's!
and oh my god, their honey bbq rib spag is a die must-have!
plus the cheese cake!
sigh, stupid, stubborn fats!



Im still in love with singing, everyday school is such a short period only.
most of the time i feel like im a taitai
so free not much to do, so shop alot D:
but i love shopping mind you
anyway ive to post up photos of my super bling phone soon! its speels one word - CHIONESS!



goodnight everyone im so tired yawns!
nightmare, please go away!

TIFFANY

I make a new friend at MDIS, the school im studying now, a girl called tiffany!
( &&&stop asking why did i register for MDIS, because i use my left brain not my right )



LOLS, and she is super super HAWTTT!
lols, like really very hot.
oh my god!!!
anyway this sweet girl is living in woodlands and we click of right from the start, im really glad i talk to her.
i dont know why i started talking to her, but she has an amazing attraction.
arranged a shoot with her this saturday, hope it will turn out well :)




ANYWAY meeting long lost friend wendy for singing tml!
and TIFFANY I SWEAR I WILL TRY TO RUSH TO SCHOOL OK!
but if i didnt, sign my name properly ( opps* jk )




i miss him , i really do.
but he is happier without me, i guess?
ive asked him, will it be easier to love me and care for me back, or to leave me and erase every memories of me? he gave no ans.



Everything seems so hard, without you by my side, even the simplest thing of opening a cap bottle.
I guess im too reliant of you, i should learn to be independent.
Maybe this is the best ending i guess.
but im still a long way to accept we are not an item.
boy, i still lie awake at night and imagine im curling beside you
i miss you :(

u meant to much to me

im a wreck, a total wreck

i haven been stop crying for the past two hours.
im just so sad, so sad in my life.
i dont know
i really dont want him to leave me
i really dont
but he left, he begged me to be kind hearted and let him leave
will i feel better even only i have his empty shells? yes i think i will
but he will be miserable, very miserable


how can all those sweet nothings become words of arguements?
how can those loveing doring eyes now stare at each other with hate
how can we forgot all those sweer memories with him and only remember the times we argue.
how did we end up like this?



I DONT DESERVE HIM, not at all