new yr's resolution

Yes, i am very very single, if that is answering your question.

If i ever sound emotional in my facebook or my blog here. Maybe its just an implusive of spillage of lots of words. Maybe its true, but not attached . Not after Mr. A 's incident .


An old year is coming to an end soon.

I felt, ive wasted one whole year. Pursuing things that i am not fated to have and falling down once, twice thrice.

When will i ever learn?

Once bitten , twice shy. It does not apply to me, not in a single bit. Oh dear.

Still good riddance to the old year, and i welcome the new year with my both arms wide open.


New Year's resolution will be to :

1. Advanced diploma certificate

2. Slim down

3. No more biting of nails.

4. No more gambling, not even mahjong!

5. Exercise more pleaseeeeeeeeee.

6. Get a bf ( i hope )

7. Curb my implusive , bad temper.

hmmmm, difficult list.

if i looked fine to you, im not

If i ever looked fine to you, maybe im not.

No one bother to ask, why i force myself to make so many changes in my life.

No one ever doubted that i am no alright.

Maybe im really a good actress, or maybe im not.

Im really not coping well with all these.

Let me be normal, i pray again,

where are you when i needed you?

Darling, if u are reading this, where are you when i needed you?
You rescued me and make me whole.
Leading me to believe in love again.
You spoilt me like no other, and you promised half of the world to me.
When i feel that im the luckiest girl in the world, you told me you haven even start loving me all.
One day you left. It almost killed me.

But now that you're back, and im strong.
I thought you'll love me more and treasure me more.
But why do i feel you're killing me bits by bits everyday?
i have no idea how long i can hold on, oh darling, i love you so.

Do i leave? Or do i salvage?


我找不到
我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好

我什么都不要
你知不知道
若你懂我
这一秒

我想看到
我在寻找那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠
紧紧守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫


*WHo are u to call me chao ah lian.
i dont smoke,
no piercing,
nor tattoo,
nor do i scold vulgarities,
or have wild colour hair or whatsoever ( nothing against girls with the above, it just that im very angry now )

Am i in wrong to give you that one slap?

When u physically hurt my gf, WHO IS ALSO YOUR BELOVED GIRLFREND.
i detest guys who use force on ladies.

WHO ARE YOU TO HIT US, just because you got a greater strength?
i am not afraid. IF u dare come find me.
This is not the century whereby u can use whole gang of ah bengs to scare me.

You are in the wrong, and im not afraid to report you to police.

If kicking her , hitting her, until she's bruised until she bleed, is correct.

You are mentally unsound.

I tell you it is not the physical hurt u inflict on her.
I was once a victim, but i walked out of that relationship.

But she cant leave you. She refused to.

I had done my part as a gf, im tired to do anything more.

If u dont love her, leave her please.

Stop asking for her forgiveness one moment and beating the shit out of her next alright.

all i want for christmas....

ALL i want for X'mas this year is...



1. Macbook PRO

2. Itouch

3. Chanel large tote bag classic

4. CHanel classic flap in white.

Very bimbo and materialistic i know.

But i just couldn't resist! too chio :D

did not edit this photo at all! :) it was a conincidence lighting :)

It just took one simple call from you. To shatter all the defences i've built around myself.

One simple sentence, To make me feel like believing in you all over again.

One simple word, and i trust.

THis time round, am i being stupid?

avoiding the truth.

Well i guess X'mas is coming and everyone is pretty excited about it :)

I am, and what about you?

Feeling ive been indulging into too much of a slack lifestyle.
Im going to throw in SOME targets!


And obviously,

1) start eating properly. And im not on a diet plan. But it just seems that im not having the breakfast, lunch and dinner rountine.

Im more of a breakfast and supper thing.

So target now is to eat properly

2) cut down on meat! Ive been indulging into a little too much meat lately.
SO im going to go health freak.

Its the veggie and fruits month :)

3) More exercise pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.

Shaking my butt on dancefloor isn't much exercise.

Anone up for some jogging and basketball?

4) Sunblock and umbrella before i leave house :D
alright i know im super fair already..... But i still can be fairer :D
going to work on getting very very very fair.

5) Pick up Latin dance. Starting on 10th jan 2010.

Anyone up for it with me? :DDD

Ok lets hope i can keep my promises :)

thaanks keaven :)

flood u with my photos since u people complaned that my blog is boring >.<

muacks muacks

ignore the mess behind!!

say hi to my short finger :D

im growing fairer and fairer :))

using the japanese 15.8mm black lens! nice?

Everytime when im desperate.

everytime when im need, i know that i can count on you and call you.

but i just owe u too much.

Really thanks for today, it was really horrible being stuck @ neo tiew lane 2! oh gosh.

But thank god u answered my call.

slept lesser

I realised that nowadays ive been sleeping very little ;/

i was back home from amber about 2 plus. But im wide awake now! It 7.30am.....

And im going jogging :D

Super hungry . feel like eating sushi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I was feeling moody for the past few days because i lost my job, and got love problems.

But thn im feelng lucky these few days again :)

headhunted by another company HAHAHA!

and i dont trust guys ANYMORE

sony event

hi, miss my photos? :)

pretty mag and me after sony traning :)

another one :)

lols i got take photo with honey!!!

but her pose all very unglam lol shall not post here :D

Me and joanna at westmall toilet :)

sporting an redeye for continous 3 days!

our booth1

:) was working for stiex too but i only managed to show up work for the first day as i was not feeling well.

Life will get only better. i hope so. i really do.

amber

I gotta feeling... That tonight going to be a good good night :)


Yes im doing the norms , drowning my sorrows! lols.


Come down AMBER 21 to find me tonight alright.!

32 circular rd boat quay :)

fool.

Of course u had the last laugh.

because im the fool. always been a fool.

protecting myself

There's a lot of words i want to say.

But no one cares. no one cares at all.

I think if im dead or whatsoever, i'll be happier. maybe.

Maybe there ain't true love at all?

Each of us rely on each other for accomapany, security, support, care, concern.

Because love fades. Even true love fates.

After each time you hurt, betrayed, stabbed.

Love slowly fades away.

But no one realises.

Because its been so long.

You're so used to each other.

But where's my love then? Is it you?

Or does someone selfish like me dont deserve love?

growing up?

Surprised to see an update? :)

SO sorry to been missing out of field.
but realised very little people who cared.
but then, i only need the small amount of genuine care and concern.

Have been fiercely independent for sometime now.
Its been along time since ive been doted on. to know that it feels good to be doted on and to be able to trust people completely.

and im appreciative for everything i have now :)

i will not be closing this blog.

but i cant promise updates every single day because they'll be more fulfilling things to do other than spending time in front of computer.

please be patient

revamping my blog!!!!


i'll be back soon. better and stronger than before.


just give me sometime to pick up myself........

my hp got stolen

My hp got stolen, @ amber somemore.

it was everyone that i trusted.

i had my suspicions, but no proven evidence.

let it be a lesson.

and i thought im damn suayyyy, until i started blog hopping.

in the end i still think im quite fortunate.

though studies are freaking making me lose alot of hair.

my dieting plan has no immediate effect

and my hp is lost.

but still, Im eating and sleeping properly right? hmmmmm




ZHENG XIAOTING , BE STRONG ALRIGHT? :)

jennifer's body

HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO:DD my naked face again :DD

people always say i look better without makeup. i find myself agreeing with this statement more and more.

because i put on makeup my face will look unnatural.

or as what ken said.
i suck at putting on makeup D:

imma zombie nowadays D:

see my dark eyebag? sigh x 10000000

very hard to cure eh.
any fast remedies people?

just last night went to catch a movie with deardear and tingyi.
i planned on a tearjerker the sister's keeper/

but in the end, i let tingyi chose jennifer's body. for which i thought it was a comedy........
UNTIL the movie starts.
its not digusting, but still makes me squirm and shut my eyes when jennifer attacked.
but if i was the boy, i wouldn't mind lo.

you have to admit, she is WAYYY TOOO HOTTTT for a devil :) right?

oh man! i still want watch the sister's keeper!!! anyone? D:

tingyi posing for my camera at gloria's jean outside cineleisure :)

oh yes , i think this is her debut naked face to be pose on internet :)
she is so going to kill me liao HAHA

the food all eaten by yours truly.

even though im slimming down im damn hungry at 24/7
thats explain why food wasn't finish.
i refuse to touch it after i was 50 percent full! lols



this is me and felix at macdonalds, amber's most loyal customer ever!!!! haha

and my very very pretty christina babaeeeeee :D

devils horn @ halloween night :)

photos is sucky.

hehehe, last photo of halloween night :)

i dont work so hard anymore.

its not that i dont find money important.

but i realise that im still young, and steps can be taken slowly :)

enjoying more from life now :)

thing to buy

Thing i NEED to buy :

Pink mouse
Macbook
Hellokitty mousepad
Pencil holder x 2
I touch

Things i want to buy :

Canon compac camera
LV carryall
Gold anklet




Any kind souls get it for my Xmas presents? :))))))))))



People always says that girls treat guys like coolie, chauffeur, and atm machine
But thn guys treat girls as chef, maid, and toyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy


so i think its fair! lols.

31/11/2009

ITs halloweeeeeeeen night time for partayyyyyyyyyyy!!!

ALot of people invited me down to zouk/st james/ butter.

but i decided to be loyal to amber.

so i dressed up as policewoman and cabbed down to amber for a night's of hard core drinking :DDD





my super clear and pinky skin which i love :D

trying to act cute for the night :)

two side pony tails :D take note i am wearing a police cap, though crooked :/

trying to learn how to wink >.^

muacks muacks.....

and when i reached amber damn disappointed!

im only the siaocharbo who dressed up =.="

changed into devil's band which rong bought for me :)

is this nicer?

i think i agreed with what ken said.

now i look like a catwoman! lols.

and christina babe specially came down to find me at 3 am!!!

she slimmed down alot!! ENVY D:

and thn again, to the end of my drinking night :)

home sweet home by 9am

yawns********

halloweeeeeen!!

me and esther aka ice angel :)

byebye brown hair

Sometines i really think im superwoman.

i haven slept for more than 24hrs but i insist to update my blog first before knocking off!!

see how much i love you guys :)

no one step to super make overrrrrr.

my hair is now BLACK!!!!!

lols, wait in anticipation for my next update about halloween and my black hair :)

overdue asia auto slaon self take photos and you, thomas.

overdue asia auto salon photos from my hp.

image not clear =/

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i cant stand it anymore D:

think i dont want go overseas le.

so hard to tolerate five days without you D:

but on second thoughts, you are coming back tml :)))))

与幸福有关 to lawrence

与幸福有关

我还记得你温柔的双眼
第一句我爱你多么的甜
幸福的瞬间我们都曾相信会是永远

你决定转身离开的那天
曾属于我们的约定化成了碎片
那幸福的瞬间
多么不舍得也要说再见

那幸福的瞬间
忽然被划上了句点
相信等待奇迹就会出现
相信不放弃会到终点
可是我们之间已分隔两道爱的平行线


this part of lyrics dedicate to lawrence tia.
lols, that day you mention i haven mention you in a long time.
because i had successfully forgot the love i had for you.

What i had with you , no one could ever replace it.
because of you i realised how much i could sacrifice for the one i love.
because of you i realise how ugly fights can be beautiful.
because of you i realised i could give up my dignity my pride my everything for love.

and because of you now ive changed.
ive grown.
stronger than ever.

and because of you. i learnt to appreciate love around me.

still rmb how happy we were? even though we dont have lots of money to spare.
but we share everything.

i forgot those times without money.

yes u gave me a push to motivate myself to work harder.
i shall confess now.
im so successful now because i want to earn more than you.
i want to be more successful than you.

that you regreted leaving my side.

did you? the answer doesn't matter anymore.

because im not the girl waiting for you to come back anymore.

you've moved on. i moved on too.

even though sometimes i think of you.

but i know my mr right is somewhere else waiting for me :)

p.s. till now. you're still the guy i loved most.

but i hope someone can replace you :)

missing babay

AHHHH~ with him going overseas suddenly i feel very very very empty D:

No one to call me at about 4 plus in the afternoon to wake up from my nap.
No one to disturb at midnight.

MY timetable has been adjusted to suit him.
and now feel so alone at home , unable to sleep D:

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

从现在开始你只许疼我一个人，要宠我，不能骗我，答应我的每一件事情都要做到，对我讲的每一句话都要真心；不许欺负我，骂我，要 相信我，别人欺负我你要在第一时间出来帮我；我开心呢，你就要陪着我开心，我不开心呢，你就要哄我开心；永远都要觉得我是最漂亮 的，梦里面也要见到我，在你的心里只有我。

this is what he left in my FB's page.
i confirmed plus chop chop that he dont understand a word of it! hahas.

oh well, but i still think its sweet.


P.S NO HE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND :)

sometimes things just take unexpected turns

SOmetimes things that u dont expect to happen, happens.

be brave my girl, i'll be here for you :)

emotional

me and tingyi outside amber :))

me and peiling ( amber's waitress).

anyway amber is hiring part-time waitress now.

Paying $10- $13 per hr.

Please send a full face photo and full body photo.

Name and ic number.

and work experience to jvnne@live.com

thank you.

tingyi, wanzhuo and me!

me and aunty before she left for china:)

i love this bun bun hairstyle:)

sorry to traumatise u with my naked face again :DD

Have been pretty much emotional lately.

" I once had it. I never treasure it. Then i lost it. Now i never get it back.."

what is it? it was lost happiness.

happiness that i have now, but different .

Thinking about how realistic every human body is.

How judgemental we are, how we are quick to criticise but not to praise.

As the time improves, we expect more.

When was the last time u exclaims satisfaction from a simple bowl of porridge or sincerely praise someone from the bottom of your heart?

i think we are just too fortunate.

people always says im too lucky.

If i was stripped off my looks, of my intellect, everything of me will be different.

i dont disagree but i work hard of what i am now.

just a jumble of thoughts mixed together. hmmmmmm