Motivated to blog :)

Warning** This will be a long and wordy post . I am bloggin this because this is my personal blog and i want to keep this as a memorial to keep me going in case i forget it someday. Most of you might not be interested.


Im sure many of the public bloggers out there receive criticism over their blog post whether its targeted on their photos, poor command of english, lack of content, etc etc etc.

Or most of us have a very busy hectic lifestyle that we cant be bothered to be repeating our daily life into writings online to entertain people.

For me, my blog is not very popular, sometimes i write about vain stuff, sometimes i put up a photos or two, and only recently i have been writing about my emotional stories and feelings i feel.

I also realised that most of my readers are guys, which dont really motivate me to blog about my makeup, blogshops etc.

I dont expect to have faithful readers clicking on my blog everyday just to check about updates on my life, but never in my lifetime, i expect these.

I received a PM in facebook from this guy, let's call him C ( i requested for his permission to blog this material , and he prefered to remain annonymous ) this morning to check up on my email.

Ashamed to say, I have not been checking that emails for quite sometime because mostly my BB is 24 hrs logged on to my office email and my personal email. Jvnne@live.com is the general email for the rest. For example, modelling assignments, buying clothes online and updates from Facebook etc. I do not want my BB to vibrate 24hrs non-stop.

I had a hard time trying to clear my spams/junks and amidst these nonsense, i found his emails to me. Which i did not reply at all until today.


1st email:

Sent: 02 June 2010 14: 45PM



To: Jvnne@live.com
 Hi there!
 Interesting to read your "10 reasons" why you are still single from your blog.. practical and realistic and truly insighful. Not sure if you would actually open this message and read, but if you had done so, please read on..


Totally agreed with you that upbringing, background, education plays a big part in forming oneself, though, would like to share with you that not all guys are like that.. I am refering to the ones you came across - is just that you havent met your fair share of guys who are what you are seeking for.. Would you think so? Is hard for me to convince you that - I am just a mere soul out of the millions and billions, I cant vouch much to what I claimed, but if you wont mind, perhaps you may read further to read on just a few little thoughts of mine?
 Is true that guys adding you from online (be it in facebook or somewhere or anywhere) are attracted by your looks (me included, I am guilty of that!) but I guess it is something that you cant deny where attractiveness plays a part (significant I would say) in protraying one's self at first, especially where guys are more "sensual sensitive" creatures (is in-built in us, sad to say, is our lifetime physical limitation, we have to live with that and balance it with wits). Perhaps this is also one of the reasons why guys too would want to be appear at their best on their first date with a girl? To create the right, and of course true and honest, first impression. But would guys have the "right", "honest" and "true" impression in the first place?
 I would like to say it is the "agenda" and the real intention/meaning behind one who initiate contact with you that is more (most) important, and that stems from upbringing - exactly what you said! Internet and online tools are just extra avenues and facilitation tools that evolves with time and improvement, is just a shame that there is a proportion of guys who are abusing/violating everything that exists - be it technology, one's moral and other's respect which everyone deserve in their own perspective. It may be easy or not easy to appreciate one's upbringing, but I guess we can only comes to a meek conclusion only when we interact with each other. Does this sound sensible? Certainly, I really believe that there are lots of great people around with excellent upbringing which we should seek to embrace and appreciate. I am still searching for it continously and I hope you too, would be the same.


I just feel that, more than anything else, most people are lacking quality interaction among ourselves and as a result a lack of soul mate.
 I am sure that there would be guys wanting to know more about your hobbies, likes, dislikes, character, family, what you do (is a form of concern actually, would you think so?), your sharing of daily joy (or even complaints or grumbles), or maybe even the name of your small little pet and its favorite food etc - there is no boundaries to what you hope to know and understand from someone if you are truly geninue. Hope you would agree with me, to a certain extent.
 Why I am writing to you is because I am sort of like frustrated by the surroundings lead by the minority (yes, I still think it is just that few bad apples) that create such a bad sterotype to you girls that some guys are deprived of a genuine opportunity to know people of opposite sex.. This is where my frustration stems from, but I guess I am helpless about that, what can I do, right? I can only make sure I try my best to be a good me and hopefully one day a small little pleasant surprise may appear.
 My name is C, who un-wittedly added you in facebook by random 1 week ago. Again, just as what I written on my message sent to you on facebook (in case you have not read), I am embracing a geninue opportunity to know you and hope things can continue from that little facilitation internet tool to knowing and embracing a truly great soul in you!
 I would like to end off by saying - Good Luck, I hope you can find the one you are looking for one day, slowly but surely. You just need a little luck to get embraced by the "minority" and soon you will realise there is actually a "majority" in the "minority" and that the "majority" deemed by you is actually only just a "minority". =)


Take care.

Yours,


C

[PS: Hope you would have a peaceful sleep tonight =)]


Wow, very impressive. I think he can start a blog on his own lo! hahah.Unfortuantely i also missed his PM in facebook to me at that time. Must be drowned by those tikopehs/ ah bengs PM ! =X

2nd email:

Sent: 03 June 2010 10: 09AM



To: Jvnne@live.com


Hey!

Know what? I enjoyed reading your blog, though I only read it twice, but really, your words there are really spot on! Straight to the point, no dwelling around. Cool! I like you!

 I totally agreed with you saying how can people go club and turn up for work the next day. I tried it once, (not clubbing but just went for drinking with my buddies), the next day, I totally cannot concentrate! And being in a profession like mine which requires me to be efficient, coping with tight deadlines, skeptical mind, and maintaining a professional image in front of my clients, totally a struggle! From then, I never never went drinking again,at least not to the stage where you dropped dead, and the next day you still have to work! In fact, I rarely drink. I would love my liver to be functioning well in 50 yrs time. By the way, I work as an Auditor, in one of the big 4 firms, in case you may want to know.
 Would like to share with you too - I am very amazed why every weekend there are so long queues at Zouk. Being there twice for my company's function, left at 12 am, and the queues were so long for each time! My colleague told me it is just the start! Amazed! Whats going on? Are they batman or vampires or something? Only come out at night? It is so ridiculous that if you were there to collect 50 cents from each person, you can be easily a few hundred dollars richer, in the space of probably one hour! Thats higher than what I would earn in one hour for my job! And I am striving hard to earn an honest living but some people can just splash in in a blink. Gosh! That's a crime!

 And to put it in a certain way, I am always puzzled by people who party their life away.. I mean, that's so sad, why would you want to always go to such a rowdy place, and so complicated, especially for the ladies, for a chill or relax? Isnt chill defined as something easy and relaxed and peaceful? Well, different people, different mindset, just couldnt appreciate. Sad to say, my ex likes to club, which my concern had always been her safety - you may never know what could be in there. Especially the people she hanged out with.. Just dont look 100% decent to me.. We had arguments, and as much as I love her, she just couldnt understand where I am coming from.. And.. well, what she did next, I think you would guess it right. I am just someone who cant appreciate clubbing. As much as I would trust she would take care of herself, I am still worried, especially I cant be there at 3-4 am with her everytime.

 To add on to what you said, I feel that the company one mix with is equally important, or in fact, more important than anything else. It shapes who you are and your values and morals. I am glad I have a bunch of great people, who know the right priorities in life. I am lucky! And of course the upbringing my parents (my mum I would say) brought me. The discipline, the rights and wrongs. I still vaguely remember, in primary school (ok, stop laughing) I have a crush on a girl, and my mum knows about it, and she openly told me I cant like this kind of girl who is so rebellious, trouble maker, and she will never like her (ok, stop laughing please). At that point in time it doesnt really strike me, because it was just a crush and she doesnt like me (are you still laughing?), but yea, my mum was right, right now her life was in a mess. But I do sympathise with her, and also other people who are in trouble and being sucked back. Is a vicious cycle. I would always think it is a choice of how you want to lead your life. You must be sensible to know that. Which is why, I sympathise them.

 I have no idea why would I have such a strong reaction after reading what you posted and comment on it. Haha.. Finally I found someone who agrees with me on certain things! And have strong views about it! My peers always said I over-react. Haha.. Well, I hope you dont find me a big reaction!


All rightz, not sure if you had read my previous email, but well, hope you can read it as well.
Take care!
Yours,


C
(PS: did you have a good sleep by any means?)


I think if I was him and i spent such a long time typing such 2 long emails to a person and he/she did not reply I will seriously give up sending emails. Waste of my time right! But he still sent!

3rd email:

Sent: 04 June 2010 11: 25AM



To: Jvnne@live.com



Hello!

Guess one of my daily morning routine, beside eating my bread for breakfast, includes reading your blog and get to read any interesting things! (I think you blogged pretty late in the night and I am asleep by then - you know, when one is old, he needs to sleep slightly earlier =p) Without fail, there are new things that I found out about you from this latest post.

 I guess you must have had been through quite a lot in the past, if not you wont be so wary and built up so many stacks of walls to protect the inner vulnerability of yours. I am so sorry to know that but yea, believe there is a better tomorrow and as always, you are still a great person and may all the people around you are as great as you. There are plentiful of great friends you have already, I hope they will keep increasing! =)

 You will be a very good and special friend, to all the people whom you deemed them as your special ones in your life. I am sure about that, just by reading what you had posted in there with regards to your "hao jie mei". Carry on! It is always a form of happiness to know and have someone dear to you by your side.

 Past, Present and Future. There is once someone who asked me will you mind someone's past since it is in the past already. Tough question, but I think the "Past" shaped who you are at "Present", and more often than not, it (may) details the direction you will be heading to in the "Future". Though more importantly it is the happenings and surroundings you are at "Present", which will surely determine where you are heading to in "Future". I would really think that it is hard for someone to really dispose and dont mind one's past - is just a matter of embracing it, if otherwise, you are just denying and avoiding facing someone's past. But one thing I think it is really true - dont let the "Past" continue to haunt you and keep you from moving on. Cant remember where I hear this from, but I think it is good to appreciate these words. Would you think so?

 I wish you had embraced your "Past", seek to cherish and maximise your "Present", and continue to hope and strive for a better "Future"!


Are you more of a "listener" or a "speaker"? Sometimes listening to one's story is really enlightening. It is where we share, then we will appreciate one another and grow. I am more of the former, so if there is a day or night where you are bored or can't sleep, feel free to drop me a message on an email, and you will be sure I will read it as soon as I can.
 Is rare to see a girl like you with a non-shaking mind of yours, a firm thinking of yours and never be afraid to give thoughts-provoking opinion! I won't say that I have a lot of females friends or acquaintances, is just I dont see much of your attributes among the ladies I interact with, be it at work or socially. I admire you for that! =)


I have another discovery! I realise what I wrote here on the email for you is not as much as flowingly as I wrote in my work reports! Haha.. So what does this mean? Hmmm..

 Yours,


C

[PS: Hope you had another good night sleep again =)]

Forth one:

Sent: 05 June 2010 11: 23AM



To: jvnne@live.com



Hello!

No blog for me to read, but still a message to drop by and check how are you~


You are sick? Please take care, drink more warm water and rest more. No fried oily food for you until you get well again! =)

 You are good in your own ways, don't get disheartened if someone does not appreciate you as much as you would appreciate him. No one is too lowly for that. Be happy, and you will be at your most attractive!


I rarely leave messages on the wall on facebook, sometimes I think a sincere message is meant for just between the 2 so I yea, prefer to keep it private. I mean, no other meaning! I am sure what I written so far is not too private that gives you any misundertanding, right? =)



Take care, Jvnne!

 Yours,


C

[PS: Hope you sleep well tonight, with a big blanket - dont catch a call. =)]

Last but not least,

Sent: 07 June 2010 10: 55AM



To: jvnne@live.com

 Hello!

No blog post, but got to come across your little trouble at the moment.


Erm, guess that you are losing weight, but I think your stats now is fine. As in your ht and wt, you are almost 1.7m, there is no way for your weight to become lower than say 48. It is not desirable and unhealthy. I guess your worries is more about the body shape. Hmm, I am not a professional so I dont really know how good or how ideal must a body look like for a model, so I just cut short on complimenting how good you have, and just jump into what could be good for you to achieve what you want. You and the people around you are more than capable on telling you whats good about you =) Ignore those harsh comments, take it as they want to make you better!


For ladies, I guess the most important thing is to watch your diet - less oily stuff, less carbo-rich stuff, more veges, more vitamins, more fruits, would be good for you.And right, never never think that dieting or not eating is good for losing weight, in fact it works the opposite. Even if you lose weight, it will rebound back easily. I would suggest maybe you have more meals, small and light, in a day. That will keep your body metabolism working and that burns the calories. You may ask what can you eat, erm, something light and healthy? Fruits are extremely good for you to munch during intervals of the day.

 As for gym work, I would say yes, you need it - gym work is a good work to burn calories! Ok, the gym work you do will be very different from what guys do, no heavy weights, no training for power, and you can get a mind of peace that you wont get any heavy and big muscles. Go for light weights training, your body will be leaner, firmer, and yea, it should look better. If you dont eat much proteins, I dont believe you will build up muscles. You need more proteins to build muscles than say, fats. And base on the correct diet and the exercise regime, in fact you exercise to lose weight than to build muscles. So you dont have to worry so much.


For the last, I heard of this Detox thing, basically is to clear the toxic we had accumulated in our body, and this will make our body system cleaner, and as a result, healthier and SLIMER! Not sure how it works, but basically it just replacing your food with healthier choice, like snacks with fruits, soda drinks with fresh fruit juice (not manufactured with high sugar content) etc. And dont think that non soda can drinks are healthy - those are extremely high in sugar content which contribute to calories and fats. So watch out on that. Vitamins rich drinks are always the best! I am not exactly sure on how this Detox works, you may check it out.


Actually you may engage a fitness instructor to help you - they will give you very good professional advice. I learnt all these from a friend of mine who is a body builder and knows a lot on weight management and finess work. My female friends approached him back then and true enough they lose weight and look better. So yea, give it a try if you would want. But please, dont skip your meals, really it doesnt help you on weight management on a permanent basis. It can rebound back easily. And sleep too. I understand modeling is extremely tough, but hang on there, manage it and you would be fine. Good luck and all the best!

Regards,


C

 [PS: I really hope you wont have to feel so stressed and got sleepless again]






I am touched, really very touched. Thank you C, for all these words of sincere concern directed to me, a stranger to you.

This is what it feels like when you felt as if you are alone and depressed, it will only take one of these emails to keep me motivated :)

In regards to the content, i will be replying to you soon, please watch your inbox :)

For my readers, I guess all of us have one of these "low" days, start by saying something encouraging to your family, your friends, your colleagues TODAY!
These words, might be short, might be insignificant to you but they do wonders!

It can be something appreciative , like telling your mummy you love her and thank her for her love and concern, something encouraging to your friends who have been studying too hard/ busy with work .

It has to start from somewhere, why not start from YOU?

I shall be a good example.

To my dear lovely readers :

Thanks for taking the time to read my blog , and sending emails to me.
Im just a little nobody but most of you have been so concern and supportive of me!
Be it whatever things you are currently busy with, a problem, work , school , relationship,
I wish you well, wish you health and wish you happiness.
I cant do much, but i can lend a listening ear.
You can email me! I cant promise a speedy reply but I will try to reply :)


Have a nice day!
Keep faith in your heart :)


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haven't worn out sexy dress in a longest time but glad i managed to look ok