i want to be happy

beloved yoyo!

some of my fav. photos over the years:)

when was the last time i really smiled?

Things are not going smoothly for me, i dont know to move on and fight for what i think i deserve, or just keep quiet and slowly slipped away?

I guess im not that strong afterall, even fighting for the love i want.

what i really want now is to dig a hole and stuck my head inside and wait till everything becomes normal again.

was it too much of a rashness to confess in that kind of pathetic situation?

or was it what my heart really wants? to let the other party know how i really felt?

listened to my fav. song over and over again.

i think ive posted up the lyrics before but im posting them up again.

Love me, by collin rayes

I read a note my grandma wrote

Back in 1923

Grandpa kept it in his coat

And he showed it once to me

He said boy you might not understand

But a long long time ago

Grandma's daddy didn't like me none

But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet

And run away together

Get married in the first town we came to

And live forever

But nailed to the tree where we were

Supposed to meet instead

I found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do

Don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down

Darling wait and see

And between now and then

Till I see you again
I'll be loving you

Love me

I read those words just hours before

My grandma passed away

In the doorway of the church

When me and grandpa stopped to pray

I know I'd never seen him cry

All my 15 years

But as he said these words to her

His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do

Don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down

Darling wait and see

And between now and then

Till I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love me

Between now and then till I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love me

Will there be a guy out there for me?

Who will promised to love me till im old?

despite being ugly, fat or whatever.

or im not that blessed at all?