i normally dont smile for photoshoot like this:)
this photo looks awesome though!im going to smile more for camera!!!
and i will blog more ,if....................................
you vote for me here :D

http://stylesg.invisionzone.com/index.php?showtopic=8624

this is the first time im joining any model competition, so please do vote for me.

though its a lil' troublesome because u've to sign up an acc first.

BUT I REALLY WILL APPRECIATES IT. really!

thnks szeling darling for telling her bf, her friends etc to vote for me
and thnks to all others who've voted!

let it be my bday present to win this alright?
loves everyone:)

photos of VGL

Announcing the lucky draw winner prize on stage!!

Winners of guitar dont know what. see all of us smiling happily:)

Me and felicia with razer's product, Moray!

With one of the cosplay ppl. so cute rightt his thing!

and that is jonathan! credits all this photos to him!

Me and felicia, Video game for live :)




NAH there u go, posted up pretty photos of felicia and me working for VIDEO GAME FOR LIVE.

so cool :)

Have been rushing for photoshoots everyday! too busy!

but its nice to have extra cash u know:)

votefor me!

Hey sorry peeps! i have been nusy for my work!
really.
but i got lots of pretty photos and things to tell u all!



but firstly!
my bday is just coming, its next sunday already!

AND I NEED EVERYBODY'S HELP!

ive joined STYLESG's face model competition for this month of july!
and my bday wish will be to win it!

all u have to do is to reigster! u can sign up an account with multiple emails, i dont care! just vote for me ok! :D

here's the link

http://stylesg.invisionzone.com/index.php?showtopic=8624&st=0

i will really really appreciates it! really!


bye for now :) muacks :)

sony vaio

its not that i refuse to upload photos.
but this laptop is really taking AGES to upload.
oh god, dont stop reading my blog because i got no photos ok!


definitely more photos coming soon :)
i got so many shoots, HAHAHAHA
models complaining no shoots, and here i am
not appreciating the faact that i got shoots on hand.
tsktsktsk.

SOmetime people asked me whether ive considered going FULL TIME MODEL.
why not, even now as part time im earning 1k-4k per month.
but thn, this job lasts as long as im young and pretty ONLY.

Anyway i'll upload photos after i get my hands on my SONY VAIO :)
yeahyeah:)
its in sg now, woohoo!


well, it knew my intuition was right.

about myself

Please click on my nuffnag ads! thank you very much.

laughs, my readership has gone up!hence, will be doing a Q&A session for my readers to know me more ^^

Well basically im a normal girls who is studying business management in MDIS.

im working as a freelance model, and modelling agent. And a part time sales consultant for man power supply.

What is man power supply? basically i only handle big companies that requires a large handful of foreign workers. My job does not have a basic at all. But ive a very high commission.

which drives me to work hard.

Anyway this is not my dream job!

My dream is to open up a successful modelling agency, and a boutique :)

How did i started modelling?

I was featured as the winner of school hunks and babes in my secondary school years.

It was a local student newspaper.

hence thats when my modeling started.

Currently im not attached to any agency.

But im a freelancer with jerry's model and Fiona's .

What i like to do during my freetime?

-Oh yes, shopping! which girl doesn't love shopping?

but it always burnt a big hole in my pocket whenever i start shopping so now i tends to avoid it at all costs! laughs.

-I like to swim, i like to jog, i like to play badminton and basketball.

YES i love sports, i think im one of the very few models who do exercise.

thats why i got a very very, broad shoulders.

-i love to read!

i can stay at home for one whole week surrounded by book! no joking!

-Other than this,i like to sing and i like to watch movie.

and i always sing and watch movie alone!

like very pathetic hor?

but its always so hard to compromise with a friend a time thats why usually i end up doing these kind of things alone.

- last but not least, i like to stroll.

i like to think about a lot of stuff, alone. thats why strolling always help me to clear up my mind.

What i like and dislike to eat?

- i love japanese food! Although im allergic to seafood ( i hate FISH!) but i still love japanese food!

- i prefer salads to junkfood.

- i love beef !

- i adore curry!

- i detests gasy drinks.

What kind of guys i like?

Someone who is nice and gentleman. Preferably with a sense of humor.

Who protects me, and give me attention as and when i require it.

im attracted to mature guys!

i think thats all.

i will posts up some great reviews of comestic and beauty products that ive been using:)

and freebies for readers who answer some simple questions :)

Anyway, my bday is dawning nearer!

and here is my bday wish list. im so fickle minded! but i dont want iphone le! hahahas.

its according to how much i wanted these things! lols.

1. Sony vaio pink laptop --- ticked
2. Panasonic lumix Lx3 --- ticked

3. Dressing table

4. Burberry bag!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. Adidas jogging shoes ( my shoes size is 36! )

5. no!no! skin ( available in watsons and guardian )

6. Ceramic hair curler ( with function to adjust temperature )

7. Ceramic hair straightener ( can adjust temp. one )

8. The saddest girl in the world by cathy glass ( avail at borders )

9. Hello kitty lamp ( harvey norman )

10.Pink monopoly collection

11. Pink PSP

12. Diamond earring :)

SOny vaio laptop :D

Just hang up phone with someone :)
received a news that instantly brightens up my day ! :D


i'll be receiving a sony vaio CS36GP in few days time! ^^
oh god i cant waitttttttttttttttttttttttttttt .
another tick off my lists.
happy, happy, happy.


ok people i promise a long post tml!
got econs tests tml :)
going to turn in early :)
love you all :)

CHARMAINE

How can i be thinking of ending my life--- when there is someone else fighting for a chance to live?

yes friends, im alright now.

i guess i have to give up

HE DONT CARES.

he let me wait for him for twelve hours, sobbing my heart out.

he let me bombed his phones for dont know how many times.

STIL NEGLECTING MY CALL.

he dont even want to hear my explanation-- he just ASSUMES.

im tired.

see, relationship DONT WORK WELL AT ALL.

ive stopped my faith in it it.

it so tiring, crying and crying AND CRYING.

damn it.

When i was ready to give my heart to him, THIS KIND OF THINGS HAPPEN.

i guess, im not bestowed to have a happy relationship.

like my parents.

i guess because im fortunate in other ways, ive to be deprived from having a guy THAT LOVES ME whole heartedly.

if he's not going to give in, im giving up.

im giving it all up.

oh no, i wont commit suicide.

not after reading http://ourfeistyprincess.com/

her story was featured in newspaper.

i read about this link in elainyuki's blog.

i hope that everyone of my reader can helps.

even one dollar will do.

she needs half a million dollars, and every little grasp of hope and faith,

to have a chance in survival.

such a little girl fighting against death.

and yet here i am complaining against stress, relationship, etc etc.

im ashamed.

i should treasure my life more.

there's no true love.....

I dont think that true love exist anymore now.
I feel that its the reality that everyone has to grasp....

as i grow up, i tried to grab on to my innocence, or perhaps its more of ignorant.
but its like sand slipping through my hand, the faster i tried, the faster it slipped.
but now, i see that the world has too much evil.
Evil that perhaps i myself will commit in the future.



no im not getting engaged, but just feels that after you're attacjed.
perhaps u would like to read all these hidden words at the end of my posts.
its all for you.
what you u doing today lawrence tia?
enjoying yourself or studying?

pain in my heart

there's still the pain in my heart.
everynight i felt as if im so alone, alone in this world.
with no one who cares, with no one who bothers.
i used to have someone to snuggle to, someone who gave me warmth.

but i lost him by accident. i lost him by mistake.
and there's nothing i can do to retrieve him back.
so here i am, lying alone again.
i sprayed the familiar perfume, hoping i can sleep.
so here i am, tearing alone again.
hugging my lifeless bolster,
hoping to have your arms around me again.

what wouldnt i give, to reverse the time.
what wouldnt i sacrifise, to undo my mistake.
if i said i still want you, will you want me back?
if i said i still love you, will you care for me again?

there's sadness in my smile, because you're not here anymore.
there's an emptiness in my heart, because i left the space in my heart for you.

no one will understand, no one will feel the same way as i do.
there's no one else in the billions just like you.
i just want only you, only you.
how long must i suffer this pain?
how long more must i suffer this longing?

or is this just a phase in my life?
is this just a path everyone will pass through.
to lost a one that u loved so.


lawrence tia, i still love you.
do you still love me too?
i fell so sad right now.
everyday i'll try to check up on your activites.
to know just what u're doing.
and ive loiter around your house area.
hoping just to catch a glimpse of you.
its pains me so much, to know that they're girls after u.
and that u might choose one of them.
it makes me so jealous, to know that im not the one u'll love anymore....

someone here for me

I just spot my friend's MSN nick.

" As long as she is my dream girl, i will not mind even if she's a robot!"

oh yes, i can imagine technology advancement will be very scary in the future.
Oh yes, and i do believe everything thing is possible.

SO perhaps the bleak prophecy of robots turning against human might happen in 12345 years time! *shrug, i will never live long enough to find out!

My intuition tell me someone is hiding something from me, someone is LYING TO ME, AVOIDING ME.
if u are that someone, better own up before i discover.
i hate this kind of feelings, make my nose itchy!!!!!

Oh today i had a very boring day, i used up 6 hrs to bling-ed up my camera, and another six hrs to study for my economics test!
and the rest of the time spent holding on to the phone, waiting for the promised phone call.
damn it. i swear i wont do this kind of stupid act again.
i find it irritating too.
to flip open my phone to check if there's a missed call, to find that there isn't.
Its like getting disappointments EVERY FIVE MIN.
i hate it, but i cant help it.


Got the mood to singgggggg now!
but no one to sing with me!
sigh i really missed the past with WENDY KHOO, we used to go to KTV everynight to sing.
Oh yes, its unnecessary expenditure, but we were happy.
We were happy without any worries that time.
but now, life is difficult for both of us, and we have to learn to be strong ok darling :)
Relationship will sometimes come to an end.
be brave:)
whether u want to end it or not, it'll be your choice.
but my advice will be : FOLLOW YOUR HEART.

ok short post, have to practise a dance.
i choose the song, FLIRT- by pussycat dolls.



its so nice to hear that you're doing well now.
i just know it you can manage the company very very well :)
i wish u best of luck :)

game for live!

my face looked so rounddddddddddddd =/ damn it.

im trying very hard to slim down now.

RIGHT AFTER THAT STUPID SEBASTIAN BROUGHT ME TO EAT ROTI PRATA THAT FEW TIMES AND DRINK ALOT. i gained 2kg.

YES, and he called me baba. damn it man! but seriously my arm is very flabby now! because no more muscles. im like skeeping and eating everyday man! must go exercise! if not shld i go back to london weight to do my treatment, hmmmmm =/

seriously i think my overall image very important to me.

i think its important. self-respect and respect to other people!

ok, im on my way to becoming prettier! :D

laughs.

And the above photos are for working for RAZER, game for live event!

so cool, mario music played by NUS orchestra! hearing the music makes me rmb the mario game :D

anyway really enjoyed the event was working with pretty babe felicia :D

but i must say....

the tube top really too small, like hankercheif man! i swear!

Please read the post carefully below, word by word. because the post above are my usual vain rantings. and the post below are more worth reading.

If from the time before you are born, you can choose exactly how you will look like, what character you will have, your own career and own family members.

How will your choice be like?

WIll u be happier living in an assumed perfect lifestyle?

or will u be happier now with all the little imperfections, little mistakes, and little unhappiness?

If given me a choice, i will have things as it is now.

although i may not look pretty and skinny.

although my character is not divine.

although my career is not the best in the world.

although i always had arguments with my family members.

i will still perfer this way.....

because if i look pretty and skinny right from the start i will not learn to appreciate my own beauty.

if my character is divine, i will never learn to be kinder, be more empathy, be more compassinate, be more caring.

if my career is best in the world, i will never learn to work hard, never learn not to take things for granted.

if i dont have the family members i have now, i will not have my happy childhood, the priceless moments i had with my family, the motivation they gave me, the acceptance and tolerance level they have for me, their indefinite love and concern.

BECAUSE if i got a PERFECT life, i will never learn how imperfections can be beautiful.

HOW you and me are suitable to live in a imperfect world

HOW i fall down and bravely learn from my mistakes, and never to make the same mistakes again.

HOW to cherish my precious, to love to care to share my fortunate with less fortunate.

HOW to curb my bad habits and to continue with my good habits.

HOW my life is enriching because i dont have the same old boring perfect life everyday.

HOW im so proud of myself for overcoming each and every challenges i met in life.

and here i am, imperfect in my own ways.

but still i meet people who like me and become my friends.

i work with people who respect me for my capability

and i live with people who love me and stand by me no matter what comes may.

thank you god for bestowing me upon the best life i can choose :)

P.s. Slow down, take a walk and breath in fresh air.

Think about your life.

Perhaps its not as imperfect as you think it is :D

p.p.s. after the event, dropped by khatib when im on my way home. i walk around your house estate just like what we have done last time.

still rmb the first time u piggy back me over the bridge.

it was the first time anyone has really carried me..... it'll be a memory i hold on forever, and ever.

Rojak jumbo post =.="

This was just taken yesterday. what i wore to casting for RAZOR. laughs. i think im getting more and more lazy. didnt bother to dressup and do proper make up. who cares =/

sebastian is a life savior~ the casting is at some ulu place at chai chee lane. he send me there, if nt i confirm lost my way one! hahas.

Tuesday met wendy on her offdays! she like so busy now:) YES I WENT OUT WITHOUT MAKE UP! the photos look pale and shag, and thick eyebags. i know i know. but not ugly enough to scare people away i hope! laugh, anyway that silly girl lept me waiting for two hrs while she do her makeup and permed her hair. grrrrrr......

well, this is the JB trip with my class mates. JANE, ADRIAN, TIFFANY and ME. laughs. nothing much to say.

as we went for few hours only! but we saw accident on the highway! its was with 2 MERS and one BMW i think. laughs. the last driver fell asleep. luckily it was not our lane/before us. if not super jam! yes, no makeup again. stop saying i look ugly if not i slap u! lols.

random, found in camera. do i look prettier when i tied up my hair? hmmmmm...

with angel:) with tiffany :)

I really need a new laptop, it took me almost one hr to upload these few photos!

laptop, latop im coming for you !

after finish loading, im so bored that im lazy to do a full-day recount! hahas. so short short inscirptions :D

despite what everyone emailed me and boycott about sony vaio! i still want it uh =/

know its super overpriced, but its superchio!

sigh D:

anyway, everyone is waiting for everyone to buy me presents. so they can buy me the last present on my list! thn like that i can wait forever lo :)

but i just got my LX3 yesterday:)

so i can ticked it off the list :) *grinning from ear to ear

will post up photos after i blinged it alrighty! :D

Anyway, my stomach is damn queasy now.

because i just drank my detoxification drink just now :)

anyway its a super good drink.

I had a very serious water retention problem.
I will always bloated up when i drink too much water/ menstration period.

I'll look one size bigger. and my tummy, arms and thighs will flap around like nobody's business!

after i drank the detoxification drink, the swelling goes right down!

but i've the constant need to pee/shit! laughs.

im not telling the name here, because im not doing advertisement for it :0

but if you're interested in it.

EMail me @ jvnne@live.com

i mean if u are really interested to buy it la..... laughs.

its a kind of coffee.

anyway my skin clears up after drinking.

maybe because ive been taking care of it?hmmmmmmmm =/

im enjoying the not applying make up out period:D laughs

Anyway gamers out there, im doing an event for GAME FOR LIFE today at national stadium.

From 6pm to 10pm :)

anyone going there please look out for me:)

working for razor!

in skimpy tube top, mini skirt and boots! hahas.

es please spot me flashing out my fats! :DDD u can criticise all you want can!

anyway, ADRIAN TAN FENG MING! HAPPY BIRTHDAY:D

i will try to make it down to zouk after my work ok! promise!:D

both of us look quite ugly in photo. nevermind la hor =/ i also never takes alot of photo with u. laughs.

p.s. im not taking the stupid pills that make me feel sick after i tookit :)

im taking london management weight coffee :)

wonder what kind of dreams you'll be having tonight?

i really miss your smell.

and i miss hugging you from the back ....

bling up my world!

i cant sleep--- till now.
im having serious insomnia, or i suspect that im actually a superpig which doesn't need any sleep at all.

i wanted to eat cold medicine, but i just ate detoxification pills, will they work well together?
damn it, if this continues i think im going to get depression.

how come when im with lawrence tia, i sleep almost 24hrs per day but i cant sleep now.
must be stress.
i hate stress.
laughs.
i seriously need sleep.


yeah, i dont think anyone knows alot about my ex-bf, lawrence tia.
bascially, his real name is not lawrence. his name is TSK. i think its not polite to mention his real name here.

anyway he calls himself lawrence, simply because its a player's name.
oh well.
yeah, he's a very good player.

he's very tall ( 1.82cm ) and sings very very well.
he's a babe magnet and he dances very well too.
he talks rubbish and he never fails to make people laugh.
yeah, I WAS THE ONE WHO CHASED HIM FOR FREAKING HELL TWO MONTHS BEFORE WE WERE TOGETHER =.="

it was my first time chasing a guy.
i was attracted to him simply because, he was NICE. yes, a very gentleman guy.
all his ex-girlfriends are damn PRETTY with HOT BODIES.
SO i guess im pretty pale in comparison?
anyway he never woo any of his girlfriends before, ever.
sigh.

the story that i knew him is pretty ironic, both of us are attached that time.
we lost contact for half a year before i saw him again. and we contacted back.
so thats when i fell in love with him.

i swear he was a very caring guy.
i couldn't deny that.
and he is REALLY A GUY who loves me even if im ugly and fat.
he fed me pretty well, i think i was like 60kg when im attached to him! can u imagine that?
but he loves me, no matter im skinny or fat.
and he is among the many of the guys- who prefer me without makeup.
and he thinks im very pretty. even though i dont think so.

He can cooks, we take turns cooking for each other :)
he was the first guy that met my parents :)
he brings laughter into my life :)
he tolerates when i really had depression.

i threatened to commit suicide when i argued with him- through alot of ways.
jumping down the building, cutting myself, drinking bleach.
yes i tried to do all that.
i think it drove him crazy, but i was mentally unstable, and he stuck with me through all that.

his friends told me he loved me alot.
i think he loved me alot too.
more than any of his ex. but our relationship was like a roller-coaster , too many ups and downs.

Due to some hiccups, we broke up.
yes, we are perfect for each other, and imperfect for each other.
i always thought i will marry him, because he was the one for me.
he's like my oxygen, i cant live without him.
thats when i become a burden to him, i guess?

i will not deny the fact that, i was most comfortable with him.
he knows me the best.
he's not judemental on me. he only praises me,but never critises me.
when im feeling inferior, he always boosts my confidence.
when im too full of myself, he'll bring me down.
tell me, which guy will really love me when i dont have an attractive appearance, which guy will not judge me if i grow fat, face full of pimples, etc.
only him,he does not judge me .

he knows when im lying, when im feeling happy or sad.
he knows what i like to eat, and what i hate to do.
he knows me from top to toe, back to front.
he understands me, like no one else.
i dont think even my own mother understands me that well.
i can face him with my true self, i dont have to lie or hide.
he tolerates my mistakes, my lies and my selfishness.

he'll be the guy i loved most.
i dont think i'll loved anyone more than him.
because im willing to give up my life for him.
im willing to forsake my family for him.
im willing to sacrifice everything for him.

but he broke my heart, again and again.

all those moments of happiness, of tears, of physical intimacy, of arguments, there're stored away in a special place in my heart and head.
you can never be replaced.
you'll be forever, forever.


but its all past now.
ive moved on:)
i hope you'll find a nice partner when you are once ready to settle down for a relationship.
treat her well :)
you're capable of it :)

this will be my last post mentioning you.
you've become my beautiful memory.


p.s. just now i freaked out for a moment.
i went to your facebook, thn realised that uve deleted our photos.
for a moment, i was really stunned.
and i started crying, crying non-stop.
i think in a small part of my heart, i really wanted u to keep my photos.
a small part of my heart wished that you'll tell your future girlfriends that u loved me the most.
a small part of my heart still hopes that u loved me.
s small part of my heart wished we were back tgt.

it will not be the last time i blogged about u.
ive written everything about u in white actually, but i guess, im not going to tell anyone....

promised updates!

Sorry sorry! i will update tml! definitely!

will be blogging about my JB trip with MDIS classmates, my drinking session with wendy, and my new love PANASONIC LUMIX lx3 * awesomeness :D


but im really super touched!
there're readers who emailed me they love my photos, and they are glad that im growing stronger :)

i really really appreaciated the emails and tried to reply as well as i could :)
im sorry it took so long for me to add in comments for my blog, but i will try to do so ASAP.
in the meantime, do checkback my blog regularly:) and helped me click on my ads ok!
i think people always forgot to help me click on my advertisement!



Bye people, have a nice dream *hugs

Panasonic lumix Lx3

OH YES, im guilty of skipping class, yet again.
Oh yes! but i dont feel guilty anymore because someone is buying me a new camera on thursday!

so excited , can help but dance around! laughs.

now now, i need my laptop and handphone! lols

singtel broadband on mobile youth plan

This is marina, now a popular place for families to picnic, fly kites and JUST RELAX.

The other day i was being emotional, after finish meeting with my dreadful boss, came here to ttake a stroll. isn't the scenery BREATHTAKING?

it was that one moment, how i wished i had internet connection on my mobile phone, SO I CAN BLOG ABOUT THIS WONDERFUL PLACE MAN!

It took me two weeks to finally rmb this place and blog about it!

And i just realised that singtel came up with a new SingTel BroadBand on Mobile Youth Plan!
If only i've known about this i would have signed it up and i could be blogging about my trip to marina two weeks ago instead of now!

For a low subscription fee every month, i can enjoy internet connection anytime, anywhere!
Even when im shopping/ sun-tanning / jogging, i can instantly logged on to internet and MSN/ blog!

isn't it cool?
Ive just signed it up. have you?

join me to Live Life Online Anywhere with SingTel BroadBand on Mobile Youth Plan!
Visit www.singtel.com/youth for details

ghosts of girlfriends past

Icant believe im blogging now when weicheng and shirong are waiting for me downstairs!

laughs, they are going to kill me man!

IM GOING TO JB TML !

with adrian, tiffany, and jane :)

jane will be driving me over.

And sebastian says he's going to give me a surprise later in the evening. dont know what is that!

just went to causeway with my blood sister .

we caught Ghosts of girlfriends past.

it was nice! there was some touching parts! give it a score of 8.5/10!

GO watch it man!

a short post now as ive to rushed down! goodnight peeps :D

Tokyo pink

Hey attention to lovely babes out there :)

Ive discovered a lovely website for easy shopping and unique buys :)

Iris the owner of Tokyopink is super friendly and super sweet!
I rmb the last time i bought four items from her, she personally delivered it to me, within the day i ordered it! Isn't that sweet of her :)

Her website http://tokyopink.per.sg is a shopping heaven!
All her pieces are specially imported from japan/ korea. And the materials are lasting and comfortable.

Look good, and feel good.

I hate those cheap warehouse pieces whereby designs may be nice, but the material either too thin, if not starchy!

Her price is definitely reasonable for IMPORTED pieces!


Isn't this an absolutely sweet piece?
Pair it off with a sweet pair of heels! and you'll be ready to go! :)


Something different, something unique, something that spell P-E-S-O-N-A-L-I-T-Y ?
This will be your dream piece!


Other than lovely dresses and tops, there's a huge variety of Bags and accessories!
And of course there's a saes coloumn too!

Buy three pieces or more, normal postage charges will be waivered off!

What are u waiting for now?
have a lovely shopping experiencewith TOkyopink!

http://tokyopink.per.sg

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its been a long time since i have new love for photos!

but this four makes me fall in love with myself :)

makeup is very very thick. but i love it for the effect of DSLR :)

but if u saw me in real life, it was damn cakey >.<

Slept the whole day away.

met up with sebastian for DRAG ME TO HELL, i give a rating of 6.5/10.

Scared me to hell with sudden noise of pop-ups.

but very expected plots, and hasty endings.

i dont really like it >.<

looking forward to transformer though :)

insomnia

Oh great, sebastian ask me to sleep early but here i am blogging!

Anyway sebastian is not my bf! stop guessing! laughs.


Ok my bday is coming in two week's time. Ive a very strong intuition that no one will be buying the things i wanted!

SO here's the list to clearly reminds you what i NEED and what i WANT.
IN order of needs!

1. SONY vaio pink laptop

2. Iphone ( decided not to go with HTC )

3. Panasonic Lumix Lx3 ( my sister lost my DSLR in china! )

4. Adidas/ Nike jogging shoes

5. Hair straigtener ( a good one! )

6. Hair curler ( a good one too! )

7. Burberry bag! ( shit, its a want. but i really really want it! lols )

8. aiyah! just give me angbaos lols.



SEE! dont get me frilly dresses, smelly perfumes, dolls and pooh bears, photoframes. and the list can go on!
I dont want! haha.

If not just treat me to dinner, all those things i wanted are *cough cough pretty pricey.
I'll appreciates the thought :)
though i really want them, sigh.


can they fall from my ceiling?
hahas, i dont even mind getting hit on my head! i swear! :DDDD



SO since my bday is coming, lets talk about my horoscope!

Cancer’s Role

Their tendency towards resentfulness not withstanding, Cancer people offer many things to the world. They have an incredible wellspring of kindness within where given half the chance, they’d gladly love to show you. Other traits include:

Kind: There’s a big difference between being nice and being kind, and Cancer is truly aware of this. Whether it’s rescuing a stray dog or feeding the homeless, Cancer (along with soulful Pisces), is the first one in line to offer a helping hand.

Dependable: While their moods may flicker like that of a candle caught in a storm, there is one thing we know for sure. You can always depend on them. Whether it’s for love or money, or simply to lend a helping hand, Cancers are known for coming through in a pinch.

Intuitive: Perhaps most importantly, Cancer, and by extension, the role of the Moon in astrology, teaches us how to intuit. Along with their great capacity for love comes a strong intuitive force that seems to guide them. Much in the way the moon’s light guides us in darkness, this intuitive ability guides them through life. Just being with a Cancer can help you learn how to do the same.

Im damn intuitive! i swear! laughs, i always rely on my instinct. and its mostly correct :D


another one,

General behavior: Cancer (the crab) is one of the most difficult zodiac signs to understand. Cancerians can have many different personalities.

Most Cancerians like to be at their home, and enjoy large families. You seem unsociable to some people, but you enjoy chatting and gossiping as much as anyone else.

You tend to day-dream very often and can be found in a state of fantasy. You enjoy art, writing, and drama, but acting may not be a good career for you because of your tendency to Overact.

Cancer is the sign most likely to believe in the zodiac, as well as other psychic happenings. You make a loyal friend and also very patriotic.

Romantic behavior: You tend to form relationships quickly and get sentimental about your love partners. Although you tend to go in for love affairs aplenty, you always feel dissatisfied; so does your partner if he/she can't understand you well. ( i dont agree! ) lols.

Good career choices for you are:

Journalist ( no way boring job! )
Nurse ( if im the nurse, i'll worry for the patient! )
Politician ( i cant handle so much polictics stuff! )
Housekeeper( i dont want hands to go rough! lols )
Chef ( oh nono no )
Real-Estate-Broker ( hmmm, maybe... )
Gardener ( im scared of insects! )

Cancerians (ironically) are prone to cancer as well as poor eyesight.
Your ruling planet: Moon.
The crab is associated with Cancer.
Your lucky color: silver. ( i like pink how? lols )
Your lucky gemstone: pearl. ( isn't it ruby )
Your lucky numbers : 4 and 6 ( but i like no.3 ! )

Let's see my mtach with other horoscope.
Libra! ( horoscope of lawrence and sebastian =.=" )
Once read it somewhere i dont mtach with libra, but look what i found...

With Libra, you become concerned with security, with your position later in life. Libra makes you aware of investments, savings programs, home, and solid structures. Libra gives you a solid frame of reference which you can under- stand. This relationship, however, could get bogged down in a kind of work pattern, which does not nourish you in other directions.
In association with Libra, you become security-conscious. You gain a degree of stability, because Libra affects that part of your chart. Libra emphasizes your Fourth Solar House - this is connected with domestic surroundings, Home, property, land and the foundation for a prosperous future.

Generally, there are obstacles to this relationship. Libra churns your apprehensions - makes you so aware of the need to build that you could despair of ever accomplishing your goal.
But, Cancer, if you are ready to settle down if ready to concentrate on Home and family then you may Have found the right person in Libra.
A thorough understanding is required before coming seriously involved. With you and Libra, that understanding comes about through a dialogue. You can't take things for granted with Libra. Everything has to be direct and on the line. Do some thinking and analyzing, state your conclusions to Libra, and then evaluate the reaction.


doesn't sounds very good eh.
hahas
let try aries, my good friends are all aries!

Your sign, Cancer, gets a career boost from an association with Aries. Natives of Aries affect that part of your solar horoscope connected with prestige, career, and ambitions. The Mars of Aries acts as an electric charge; you Set going, you quicken the pace, you sell, you drive, and you declare yourself "in the race." Aries, nevertheless, can help set you up in business. Aries can show you how to utilize your assets. At times, Aries sets too fast a pace; this causes you to become apprehensive. You want to be sure of security; you check before taking a major step. But, with Aries, you are in business, an entrepreneur. Your standing in the community rises; your ambitions become realities. Yet, with all this potential, there is emotional conflict. A major conflict could arise where your home is concerned. Aries might choose one place, one area you could select something entirely different. The fiery temperament of Aries and the receptivity of the Water element of your sign do not mix. The relationship succeeds on all fronts only if both Aries and Cancer are mature. Also, if other aspects between the charts (requiring horoscope comparison) are harmonious. Basically, the relationship could spark activity, but could also end up as a flask in the pan.

Aries and Cancer become impatient with each other. You find that Aries encourages you one minute, and then offers criticism. If you are a woman, an Aries man will kelp you attain commercial success. There is also a degree of physical attraction, although it is not over- whelming. If you are a Cancer man, the Aries woman could nag you until you better your position in life.
You can both - Cancer and Aries - exhibit a stub- born streak. Neither one is an angel. And you could certainly learn from each other. If you feel adventurous, Cancer, give it a try!


Also like not very good eh, not uppose to be like this!

tired le people, go find about your personality too :)

promises

Ok i promised to post up my photos! next week!
My BDAY is coming in two weeks' time!

I WANT MY PRESENTS!

not sure what to buy?
ask me ok :)


Anyway if u are asking my out for bday dinner or smth,
Book me early!
i can seperate my body :0


i promised a long long post soon! really!

bikini

YEAH, ive received my bikini photos from the photographers!
and i love them.
going to edit and put it up for my new banner :)



Just now logged in my friendster, wholivesnearyou, facebook and tagged.
The amount of friend requests and messages always succeed in astonishing me!

I wondered, if i burned my pretty face, will anyone still be my friends?

And then, sebeastian will u still like me?
laughs.

promise to blog a proper post tomorrow ok :)
goodnight ppl :)

laptop

Desperately need a laptop!! Prefer SONY VAIO PINK OR iMAC.
Any kind, rich souls? :D

Im a very implusive person.
When i think of stuff, i'll do it straight away. Without any further ado.
Some times when i stop.
I'll think again, if i took a different step, will i be happier?

Anyway, i decided literally to stop EARNING money.
because im tired.
I'll be probably doing some freelance jobs here and there.
but i'll not be working as hard as before.
Probably i'll earn less than one k per month to get by TILL I FINISH MY DAMN SCHOOL!
will i starved to death? laughs.

Anyway, i dont normally shopped.
but when i do, i'll spend over five hundred!
Can u believe it?
laughs.

Went to SaSa and guardian to get woman's necessities.
Stock up on make up and face products.
Thn went on ahead to DAISO to buy cheap thrills!
laughs, i fall in love with everything in daiso!

Got funny flower nice smelling petals.
I bought alot of it!
NOW my room smells like lily, peach and jasmine flavour!
Damn hilarious.
but i love my nice smelling room!


Anyway after eons of years, i decided to be hardworking, and start packing up my clothes!!
Which is alot.
I dont normally shopped for clothes now.
because it's damn difficult to find a good shopping partner.
And i dont indulge myself -- at all!
but i used to spend alot of clothes, therefore the gigantic mess on my floor when i poured everything out of wardrobe and drawers, make me take a sharp breath!

SEBASTIAN AND MARYANN u can safely open my wardrobe doors.
nothing going to fall out now! :)
and everything smells of peach! i like fruity smell, more than flowers or wood. =/


From today onwards i'll stop drinking.
i'll exercise 3 times a week.
i'll drink 8 glasses of PLAIN water.
i'll eat fruits and veggies everyday!
i'll keep my room tidy and clean.
i'll stop sleeping for hours and hours.
i'll stop taking cab! ( unless necessary )
and i'll be a good girlfriend! :D


Thn i'll be a healthy, pretty girl :)


Anyway relationship with my mum and dad gets better and better.
i think its because of the fact that they dont have to keep an eagle eye on everything i do because ive grown up.
Ive stopped making them worry.
I think they know i broke up with my ex-bf, lawrence.
I think they suspect i got a new r/s ( which i dont ok! )


We joke around now :)
bring them out for dinner or cook dinner for them.
I tried to mop and sweep the floor everyday ( I TRY TO! :D )
on weekends , we'll have a massive DA SAO CHU!
We talk for hours.
My life is getting better, i think :)


Though everyday i still continue to go out late and reach hme late.
I think its a bad influence on my sister and brother, but it cant be helped.
Thinking of moving out and renting a place, nearer to my school too.
But it wont be safe on my own living in stranger's house though.
Sigh, HOW?


I know it's kind of hard
To get over someone
And try to start a new
A new relationship
No need to rush cuz you
Have all the time in the world
Right now let's focus on
How we can keep you happy

I can feel it when you hurt
You will never be alone
All those crying days are gone
I'll be here to guide you
Baby I will be right there
And you know I'll always care Ohh Baby

You can call on me
No matter what the situation
I will be there
Put your trust in me
Whenever you need someone
I will always be there

I know it broke your heart
Your love is truly over
He left you sad and lonely
Now you're feeling empty
You've got to realize
He made a big mistake
Leaving you was the worst thing he could ever do

I can feel it when you hurt
You will never be alone
All those crying days are gone
I'll be here to guide you
Baby I will be right there
And you know I will always be right there

Baby listen to me
And girl you will see
That I'm the only one for you
I'll give you what ever you need
You can depend on me
I'll be your friend
I will always be right there, oh

I can feel it when you're hurt Girl, you're never alone
Oh, all those days are gone I will be there
Oh, I will be there
Just to guide you
You're never alone Girl, you know I'll always care

Right there, right there
You don't have to worry
I'm gonna be by your side
Even when times are hard
Just count on me and I will always be there

pub sessions

,

That christina in the photos with me :)

Today accompany her to do her hair extensions at far east :)

Mine was done at IN VOGUE far east plaza #02-37.

i feel that the braiding method was quite good so i recommended her :)

After that we shopped for a little and i bought the cutest mirror and my long waited corset! sexy sexy! lols.

Took a cab down to St.james. realised there's some sort of Underage party at powerhouse =.="

i cant go in!!!

SO we went to noveita for some salsa, and to dragonfly for live band and trance!

After that went to Mono to sing, but sound system was bad so we took cab to Amber 21.

And i was just drinking there yesterday too!

and eevrywhere i go, i just DANCE! they called me hyperactive, but i realised i really, really love dancing!

Anyone willing to sponser me to further my dance lessons? laughs.

Ive been drinking from MONDAY TO SUNDAY!

i need to cut down on my liquor! laughs.

Sebastian, i QUIT drinking le! From today onwards! lols, next time we just go eat prata dont drink uh :) sounds like a good idea right :)

Relationship used to be as simple as ABC to me in the past.

When im in a r/s, it meant that i love th person, and the person love me, and we do things that makes each other happy, and we avoided unhappy stuff at all costs.

But when i grow up, everything multiply and grow complicated!

Now its not as simple as i love you, and u love me, so we get tgt.

Now ive to consider so so many factors.

I think im more guarded and wary towards r/s now, i dont wish to become a victim again!

Im not as strong as you think.

movies!

I want to watch...

1. UP
2. Transformers 2
3. Hannah montana the movie
4. Ghosts of girlsfriends past
5. Ice age 4


And i want to sing sing songs :)
laughs, DATE ME OUT PLEASE :D

tanjung beach sentosa shoot with philipines photog

First photo was with the philipines gf of a photographer that i did a bikini shoot at sentosa today :)

And the rest are all zilian photos in cab! laughs!

Anyway today was a hot hot day!

Saw several other models' shoot at sentosa too, hmmmm.

Yeah yeah i know my make up is super thick! laughs, i look damn old.

ANyway i hate the sun because it melts my makeup, so ive to keep on applying and applying and applying more foundations, and my whole face becomes damn cakey!

RIght after shoot i called cab hme and slept till now!

Im so amazing right!

when i knock off to sleep, i'll be like unconsious woman, no one can wakes me up!

laughs. anyway got an office and leather wear shoot tml :)

Nothing happens today :)

though i will try to attempt a longer blog post tml :)

goodnight ppl :)

bikini shoot

In exactly one hour later i need to makeup, and rush for my photoshoot!

its at tanjung beach! laughs.

i haven been shooting for so long, and i stayed up and awake in case i fell asleep and missed the shoot.

So here i am blogging :) If u'are an early reader of mine, u can rush down to tanjung beach to support me :) lol.

anyway im better prepared this time! will be covering myself with tons and tons of sunblock! no wish to get burned or tanned!

will bring my camera alongggg :)

wait for my proper and long post :)

Finding myself

pardon my flash! that is my darling szeling!
we've been very very good friends for almost 9 years! can u imagine? lols.
in esplanade's toilet :)
see pour height difference! lols, i was wearing my five inch modo heels :)

Its the month of finding myself.

I will do the things i love, i miss, and im good at :)

i think i will go back enrolling in dancing.

And my ex-coach msg me about AVIVA badminton compeitition in june :)

maybe will find a female partner and join :)

Today skipped class, BECASUE totally no mood!

i know i know, i should not have skip it, but well i think it was PMS.

Anyway called victor out to sing K ( how come no one emails me D: )

and he said my singing was horrible D: D: very sad.

and after that joined darling szeling to esplanade for cullberg ballet.

I feel that it was more of modern dance, it was so abstract!

but i loved the second part of dance.

the guy started telling jokes.

WHy did black woman carry big bag?

because they need to put lipstick. ( i dont get it )

Why did blondes carry shoulder bag?

I dont know! lols! this was damn hilarious.

after that we went to causeway. i forgot to eat the whole day so i started buying tons and tons of food, and vodka .

and we walked to her house nearby to have a drink and talk :)

and here i am, hme sweet hme at 1am!

oh god tml got bikini shoot so cannot sleep now. if not confirm overslept!!!!

One month, one month of no contact.

Ive gotten so used to you that i didnt even realised myself.

How important you've become and how those small talks makes me smile.

damn it.

afterall

After so much, i still dont feel loved.

im still alone in my world.

k singing

Please note that any updates on my blog will be below this post until after my bday! lols, i refuse to blog if u people keep on buying me teddy bears or pink dresses! lols!



URGENT- finding khakis to go singing with me! lols
please register by sending a photo of yourself and contact no and free days to jvnne@live.com
laughs! im serious! i need singing partners!! :D




My bday is coming soon, in a month's time:

Please get me something in the list! much appreciated!

1) Pink monopoly set
2) Armani exchange watch ( chain-like )
3) HTC cruise phone
4) Burberry bag
5) Kino or border's vouchers
6) SONY VAIO LAPTOP
7) Gucci lanyard
8) Hello kitty mouse
9) Hello kitty photoframes
10) Hello kitty curtains


Or u can alternatively pays for my shopping * smiles as sweetly as possible

love, me

Love me by Collin raye

I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again I'll be loving you
Love me

Between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me


I cant help tearing whenever i heard the song.
How many of us have the good fortune to held your loved ones closed in your arms for as long as you lived?
And how many of us only regreted not treasuring after losing someone dear?

I can only treasured so much in my life now.
Its as if something went clear in my head.
Money and entertainment is secondary.
My family, my friends will be my priority in my life.

SO my dears, treasure your loved ones before your eyes.


Goodnight. :)

Do singaporeans dress badly?

" DO singaporeans dress badly? "

Is it more common to see this?

Or this?

I would say YES! to singaporeans dressing badly.

i think everyone agrees with me it will be more common to spot the prior photo in orcahrd road.

Maybe its because of our tropical weather, or maybe its because we are not so CAUGHT UP with the lastest fashion and dressing sense.

But normally we would be clad, in t shirts short pants, and slippers!

DOnt u agree with me?

Yes its casual, it gives comfort, and it is so suitable if i suddenly spurnned up the idea of going sentosa.

But is it so appropraite in hearts of our small land, busiest orchard road?

I know there is no definite "correct sense" of dressing.

But i think one should respect ourselves in matter of dressing up.

t is really perfectly alright if u are dressing casually in informal ocassions, less likely to been seen and observed by people.

But it is not giving respect to yourself and others dressing inappropiately in the busiest city of our cosmo city.

one fine day, did u board the train to find singaporeans, clad in something similiar , very similar to their PAJAMAS.

Some sleazy singlet? Pants that looked too worn,and too short to be seen in public? Tee shirts with holes? or something that looked like satin nightdress?

yes i did. have u?

normally i sleep with comfortable, **cough cough** sexy nightie which is really inappropiate to take a photos to show my readers.

But kill me, i wouldn't have worn some thing like that out even if i was awarded a million dollars for the bravery

But on cold nights, i would slip on some long sleeved shirt, something like this.

i think no matter how cute i look, i will be a laughing stock once i step out of my house!!

yes laugh all u want but im obliged to post this photo up! lol.

Ok good night peeps, what are your views too?

Do u think singaporeans dress badly? :)